Desperate Hearts. (A Steven Tyler fanfiction)

Chapter 31: Memories

1 week later

I sighed as I looked around my bedroom.

It's been a week since Steven remembered Aerosmith.

They've been busy starting to write and record again. Things seemed to be back to normal.

Except for Steven and I.

He still didn't remember us. The pain was eating me away inside. I've been so depressed. I wasn't sleeping well. I wasn't really eating. It was hard.

I knew I wanted to stay and try to push through it; see if Steven would eventually remember us; our memories.

But it didn't seem to be happening.

I wasn't going to stay here for someone who didn't even know me.

I had come to a decision. I was moving.

I was packing up and starting over. New state, new job. I would miss everyone.. Marissa, Jake, and the band. Especially Steven. But I felt like as painful as it will be to leave, he won't even care.

I hadn't told anyone about my plan except for Joe. He was upset, but he understood. He promised not to tell the rest of the band.

I was going to their concert tonight; almost like a final goodbye. I wanted to see my favorite band for the last time. This might sound dramatic, but I wouldn't be around if Steven can't remember who I am.

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I walked out of my room, into the living room. Steven was sitting on the couch, watching a movie.

I managed a smile, and sat down next to him.

"Where are the rest of the guys?" I asked him.

"They went out to eat before the concert." He responded with a smile.

"I see, what is this movie?" I gestured toward the TV.

"The Vow.." Steven said, embarrassment creeping on his face.

I laughed. "Why are you embarrassed?"

"Because it's a chick flick.."

I chuckled, and sat back.

I watched the remainder of the movie with Steven.

The storyline was exactly the same as our situation. Except it was the girl who couldn't remember the guy. But holy crap, who could forget Channing Tatum?

I broke out of my thoughts and saw the credits rolling.

I sighed. "I'm gonna get something to drink. Want some??"

Steven nodded and I stood up.

I started to take a step, and I don't know what happened, but I lost feeling in my ankle, and I lost my balance.

Steven caught me as I fell into his lap.

I chuckled, embarrassed.

"Sorry.." I muttered.

I looked into his eyes, as he stared at me.

"It's okay.."

I don't know what happened, but suddenly, we were kissing.

His lips felt so right on mine.

We pulled back after a minute. I tried to see if there was recognition on his face; if he remembered.

There wasn't.

I sighed. The kiss didn't do a thing.

I felt broken inside.

The last thing I thought could bring him back to me failed.

Steven looked enthralled.

"Wow.." He said.

I smiled a little. We were silent then.

I knew now. I could leave after tonight.

I felt tears forming in my eyes.

Just then the door opened.

"Hey guys!" Joe exclaimed.

I looked down at my feet.

"Hey..I'm gonna go..in my room.." I mumbled, standing up and walking away.

I didn't need to see Steven and the band's expressions. I just needed to get through the concert, and maintain the courage to leave. There was nothing holding me back now.

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