Do I Feel the Same

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Curtis's POV

        We reach her house and Carly rushed out of the car and dragged James out. I walked to the other side of the car to help her get James inside.

       After I took James into her room, I found her in the living room crying. It broke my heart to see her like this. And it made me feel worse that it was because of me. She usually hides her pain and I know that. But right now, looking at her, she looks more hurt then ever. 

Carly's POV

       After Curtis took James to my room I couldn't help but start crying. I was angry with James for leaving me alone at the party, I was angry with Curtis for beating him up, I was angry with myself for letting all this happen. I have never cried this much before but at this point it was all too much to hold in. I looked up and saw Curtis with hurt eyes and he lost his usual excited, happy self. I turned my head and stared out the window, not wanting to look him in the eye. I know that this is my fault, I know that James wouldn't be unconscious right now if I would have listen to Curtis and stayed with him. We stay like that for a few minutes until he broke the silence.

"Carly, please look at me" I didn't move I just kept staring at the bluebird in the tree. "Carlianne please" He raised his voice slightly thinking I wasn't listening. I turned my head knowing I looked like a puffed tomato. "I'm trying to talk to you" His face was red and his eyes were watery "What do you want to talk about Curtis? I really don't want to talk right now" I know he wasn't going to take no for an answer so he started talking anyway, "I know you're probably mad at me and I know there's a lot of stuff going through your head and I just want you to talk to me. And if not talk to me then listen. I don't think you would feel the same about me but I've liked you since the 7th grade and in fact I think I'm in love with you. I love it when you look focused in class, I love it when you wear sweatshirts on your lazy days, I love it when you do stupid things to make everyone else happy. I especially love it when you bite your lip when your'e  frustrated. I don't care anymore if you don't  fell the same way I do. I can't explain my actions today but I want you to know that it hurts to see you with another guy and when I called and you didn't pick up I panicked and when I saw James I couldn't help but overreact. I'm sorry for hurting you and I didn't realize that hurting him was hurting you and the last thing I want is to make you hate me." 

      At this point he was crying and broken. I didn't know how to respond to what he had said. I knew I loved Curtis, I just didn't know if I did in the same way. I can see this was tearing him apart. Then I looked down at the scars covering my arm and back up at Curtis. He nodded his head implying that he knew what I wanted to do and that I shouldn't. I got up but Curtis cut me off, "Carly please don't do anything stupid" his voice was stern and serious. I ignored him and walked up stairs to my room. I closed the door and climbed into the chair since James was sleeping in my bed. I closed my eyes and fell into my dreams. 

Curtis's POV

      After Carly walked out of the living room I grabbed my stuff to leave. She clearly didn't care about anything I said. Right before I walked out of her house, I decided to check on her to make sure she was fine before I left her. I opened the door to her room and peaked my head in her room. I saw her on her chair sleeping while James takes over her bed. I remember all the nights I slept in her bed. All the nights I spent talking to her until 3 am. I doubt that would happen anytime soon.

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⏰ Last updated: Apr 07, 2017 ⏰

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