Told u I would update more ;)
School today was hard.Having to face my best friend and pretend nothing was wrong,when inside,I was dying.I don't have a choice.If I tell her, it will end our friendship,but if I don't tell her,the pain will slowly eat away at me,stealing any chance I have of a happy life.She means the world to me and I don't want to loose her.I'd rather loose myself than loose my world.I hate the fact that friendships can be ruined by a boy.Whats the point?Its just so stupid...
I walked into first period only to see my best friend.Her face seemed to brighten when she saw me.I was so scared to say the wrong thing.I went the whole day without saying the wrong thing.To be honest,she made me feel happy.Like nothing was wrong with the world.Then I remembered all the problems and insecurities that hide inside me.That's what happens when I'm alone.I start to think about what a good day I've had and then I just get a reminder of how fucked up my life really is.It's like a timer.I get a certain amount of time to be happy,but when it runs out,I'm screwed.I guess that's just how I'm meant to live my life.Constantly being timed.My happiness is timed.The amount of time I can go without crying is timed.The amount of time I can stay strong for is timed.The amount of time I can keep myself alive for is timed.Some people would say it's not fair,but nothing can ever be completely fair.It's like splitting a bar of chocolate,one piece will always be bigger than the other.In my case,they will always have more happiness than me...
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Teen Fiction"You said maybe,so that I wouldn't be hurt by a no.Truth is,a maybe hurts more.It gave me hope,then destroyed it.Rejection doesn't hurt as much as destruction."
