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Advice I would give to someone about Self Harming.

What advice would you give to someone about self harm?

Don't.. Don't ever do it.

I promise you it make things worse.

I don't care if people say it makes the pain go away.

Its a lie. It makes them feel numb and makes them feel a different kind of pain, and to them its better than the pain they were feeling before.

I know things are bad. I know I don't know what your going through, and I'm not gonna pretend like I do either.

I know you feel like no one will listen.

That no one cares.

But I PROMISE you.

If you come to me and say "Hey I have a problem can you please help me?" I will be there for you as fast as I can.

I will let you cry.

I will let you rant.

I will keep ALL of your secrets and won't tell a living soul.

EVER.

I know it seems like it won't effect anyone.

That no one will care.

That's a lie.

I and so many other WOULD care.

What happens when your crying so hard ad you have that razor in your hand, and your not paying attention to what your doing and you cut too deep?

What happens when your so weak you can't even get up or scream for help?

What happens when you start losing consciousness and regret ever starting and you can't go back and stop it?

What happens when your family finds you?

I don't need to tell you how your family and friends would take it.

Don't ever start self harming.

It is an addiction.

Think, how would you feel if one of your daughters or sons started self harming?

 You may think your family doesn't care but that is NOT true.

Your family does care about you.

And if for some reason you don't believe me you still have your friends.

Think of your best friend.

How would they feel?

I know some of you like bands like Paramore or Pierce the Veil or Sleeping With Sirens or Demi Lovato.

Well Vic Fuentes from Pierce the Veil over came his self harm problem and I doubt he would EVER want you to harm yourself.

Haley Williams was bullied when she was younger, do you think she would want you to give up?

And Kellin Quinn came from a broken home.

I know a lot of people come from broken families but he was strong enough to over come those problems and help and save peoples lives all around the globe.

Demi Lovato has over came so so much.

With being bullied as a kid, she over came her bulimia, anorexia, self harm and bi polar disorder.

I know its hard to think you could ever do what they do.

But you never know.

And I doubt you would want self harming to get in the way of your dreams.

I know its hard now but I promise if you wait it out it will be worth while.

I promise.

If they can over come all these things....why can't you?

What's so different about you?

Their just normal, ordinary people like us.

Why can't we get through this kind of stuff too?

But the thing is I know you can.

I KNOW IT.

I know you have the guts, will, determination, and heart to get through this.

If you need someone to help you get through this, I'm a click a way.

I know that if you want to recover you have to have people support you.

I'm lacking that in my family.

That's why its taking me so long.

But I know you can do it.

Because I believe in you.

I will never let you fall. I'm always here.

I love you because you are you. <3

I love you so much and I know you can win this battle.

I will never let you fall. If you stumble that's okay.

If you relapse that's okay.

But please try your hardest.

I love you too much to let you go.

To let you leave this way.

You have so much potential.

You could be the one to change the world for the better.

Keep those dreams in mind while you spread your wings

. I know its hard now.

It could either get harder or easier depending on how you look at the situation.

If you look at the positives in life there is nothing holding you back.

I know you can do it.

If you have problems believing people when they call you beautiful I will tell you everyday that you ARE  BEAUTIFUL.  

If you have trouble letting your feelings out I will be there for you 24/7 for you to let it all out.

If you have suicidal thoughts often or have those awful voices in your head (Its okay I've had those voices too I know how it feels) I'll keep you from listening to them.

I promise I'll always be there for you I promise I DO NOT JUDGE.

 I don't have any room to judge anyone anyways. 

I love you the way you are don't you dare change.  

 We will get through this battle together...alive.

I'm telling you now if I thought self harming was a good  idea I wouldn't have put so much effort into this 3 page chapter.

Self harming is NOT worth it.

I wish I had someone there to tell me "Hey don't do it. You'll regret."

But I didn't so I'm making it my mission to keep as many people from self harming as I can.

I may be one person but if I can stop just one person I'd be saving a life.

Please all I'm asking is that you don't hurt yourself.

There are so many other things you can do to help yourself and get rid of the pain. 

I love you so much beautiful and that goes to you whether your a girl or a guy you are and always will be beautiful inside and out.