On A Warm Place

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On A Warm Place

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Arms extended high up the dark sky adorned with the twinkling stars. Visions towards her hand reaching for the nights’ diamonds blurred by tears residing on the edges of her eyes. Fronting a smile beneath a longing she forever wonders an existence in her.

“So this is how it feels.” words echoed from her lips to her ears. “To spend this day with you so far away.”

The wind blows cold and seeping. Memories of the past seemed trapped in a maze inside her head to find its way out. Bumping on every walls of her brain with hopes that maybe breaking the way out would work, these distant pasts continued to hammer her bank of thoughts.

“No homemade chocolates from you today, huh?” the smile on her face hasn't left yet. “Or a heart-shaped cake made only for me.”

Eyes shut out as a voice from the past enters her ears. No one’s there but herself and that thought of cat-woman whispering gently onto her sensitive lobes about the present prepared with her in mind. It stings; her ears, her lips, her head, her heart. It turned into a fist before it descends to rest over her chest, pulling it closer to the beating muscle trapped inside her.

“So this is how it would hurt next Valentine’s Day... since I’ll be graduating and will be away.”

Air made its way into her lungs, cycled for a bit before it slowly exits through her mouth shakily. The sound of birds chirping at this hour of the night accompanies her silent moment. Her mouth lipped her name, repeatedly, pronouncing it longingly heavier each time over and over. Tears just started flowing out.

“I miss you.” she whispered a little louder than any of the words she has muttered. 

Brows get closer but separated by a cringed skin in between. Her eyes opened small, glaring madly at the sides over nothing in particular. Lips that were gently spelling out her name moments ago transformed into a pout of question and annoyance. Clenches tightened, shaking involuntarily.

“You... Why did you go on a vacation without me, Idiot!?” her voice raise a little. “Why did you have to go somewhere so far today?! It’s...” rising a little more. “It’s Valentine’s Day!” She shouted. “It’s Valentine’s Day ‘you hear me?!!” there was no hint of madness but annoyance. “It was supposed to be our day together you airhead!!”

Another ball of air seep out of her mouth that was dug deeply from within her lungs. Eyes now overlooking the city lights, the looks on it sharpen even more towards the sight in front of her.

“You should’ve at least left me a chocolate!!” she shouted loud without any care. “Or a kiss.” a word she pronounced in contrast with the last one.

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“Ara~” smile stretched her lips. “Yuuchan commented about my IG post through her blog.” She giggled excitedly, imagining the girl’s face.

Bearing that giggly feeling, she went out to play with the sand under the high sun, took pictures of the deep blue sea, and herself enjoying the place. 

After running around the beach and exploring the place all day, tiredness finally knocks on her. As she drag herself back to her hotel room adorned with fresh flowers partnered with a nature feel sheets covering her bed and couch. She grabbed the nearest pillow and slumped herself on the comfort of the inviting couch.

“Ahh~ I should’ve brought Yuuchan along.” She murmured. “She’ll definitely love the place.”

Rolling and lying down on her back, she gave a sigh before resting her arm on top of her eyes. The grin that was possessing her lips earlier transformed to something straight and emotionless.  Soon seen softly biting her lower lip to hide the smile of regret that resonated from her heart, water streams down from underneath her arm.

“I’m so sure I wanted to bring you along.” She whispered talking to herself. “Why didn’t I?”

Days before that came rushing to her head. That dilemma of bringing her along or not sends her to a week of sleepless nights and lost appetite. Bothered by the busy schedule of the shorter girl to ask her out and the feeling of not wanting to keep the young one to skip work just because she wanted to get together, she ended up not asking at all.

“I miss you, Yuuchan.”

Unveiling her eyes from the arms that covers it reveals still teary orbs. She shook her head while standing up, dragging her whole body to bath. Not only does she look tired and heavy, but an aura of dissatisfaction succumbs her.

“If only you’ve shown me at least a little act of wanting to be with me…” she talks to herself in a low tone. “…I could’ve gathered the confidence to ask you out.”

She releases a big ball of breath that seems to be hiding deep inside her lungs.

“Then maybe I could’ve given you a homemade chocolate today like before.”She shut the door of the shower room lightly.“…or a Valentine’s kiss maybe.” She murmured sighing. “Yuuchan, you idiot.”

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