My Monotonous Life

Day One

I woke up today, late, like usual. I took my first Biology test that I didn't study for. I came home watched Sex and the City reruns and went grocery shopping. I had lunch, came home and now this. Tomorrow ill go to work, have social anxiety, struggle through homework and go to sleep. Repeat that a million times and that's my life.

I'm not really sure what points of my life I should elaborate on to peak your interest so ill just talk about everything. Maybe one day when I get one reader (that's you) ill get a comment that will give me direction. I want an outside perspective.

My morning routine:

Somehow no matter what I have going on I'm always late. I don't know how I do it. I can wake up hours earlier than I need to and still run 10 minutes late. My biological clock is off or something. I typically turn my alarm off 3 or 4 times hop in the shower (my happy place) and turn on the T.V while I brush my horribly tangly long blonde hair. I pick out my boring out fit which usually consists of a sweater or cardigan, skinny jeans or tailored black pants. I do my hair and makeup the exact same way every day. I've tried to do something different but I never actually leave the house looking any different from normal. I then get in my black car and speed away to school/work.

Today at school I tried to take my normal seat in the very back corner and it was taken. After a minor freak out some one pointed out the one open chair in-between two strangers. Ugh. (I have a love/hate relationship with people which ill get to at some point) I squeezed in and felt awkward and rushed through my test. I don't know why I just don't like sitting next to people. I wonder what they think. Do I smell bad? Do they think I look weird? Do I fidget to much? I think sitting next to people distracted me and I hope it doesn't show in my grade.

My mom gave me one of her prescription muscle relaxers and I took it last night and I've felt weird all day. Maybe that's whats making me feel so blah today. I get so tense in my neck and shoulders and have to take something every few weeks. I get migraine headaches that no pill or herbal remedy can touch. My doctor says I get them from stress. What is there to be stressed about though? People have real problems and feel fine. I worry that im not cool enough and cant sleep for a week.