In your time

Chapter 8: Strange very strange

I could still smell that very strange smell but I ignored it. I felt safe I felt comfort and I finally felt love again my heart open.

I was having a strange dream.

I was back in my parents throne room. With Ezekiel why are you giving me a nightmare fates. But we were younger I was sitting on my throne just staring at him wondering why he's bowing to me when I told him never to bow to me. Just felt wrong cuz you know I fell in love with him. But then blood came out of his mouth he collapsed to the ground.

I try to move but I was stuck I was frozen in fear I couldn't move I couldn't say anything nothing to him it was driving me nuts. His eyes started to fade he looked like he was about to die.

"You failed you failed all of us you couldn't save us because you're weak and your cruel." Words I thought he wouldn't not have ever said. This pain in my heart that felt so familiar from so long ago came back to me.

But still I can and say anything to him I still wanted to help him but I guess he's right I'm still too weak. Still to powerless. Although I wasn't able to say anything I started to cry and cry because I know I failed him. Like I failed my father so long ago I can't save anyone.

I was finally able to break free of the fear so I rushed to him and propped him up on my knees. As I looked into his lifeless eyes he was able to say one last thing to me.

"I hate you with all my heart I wish you were never born then I might still be alive."he said as his last words slept and he died.

And I believe every word I knew I failed him. Maybe if I was never born he would still be alive he would still have life. I started crying even more and more and more. As his body disappeared from my hands I just started to hold my arms in my chest and scream and cry some more it hurt so much.