Secrets shatter

Chapter 8

Bessy's POV

Willow hasn't said a word. She just cried for a couple of hours non stop into the sheets. I just sit in the chair watching her. Watching the pain in her face. It will take her days for her to realise what is happening. I feel so helpless. I will just let her let it all out. I wont interfere.

She has stopped crying. she is just sitting next to her watching her, as I watch her. Willows face has gone pale too. her cheeks stained with tears, with huge bags under her eyes.

Willow slowly strokes her hair. Brushing her fingers down her hair and across her forehead. She holds her hand tight, not ever letting her go.

Hours go by as we just sit in silence and as we sit in pain. Nurses come in and out, checking all the monitors and occasionally come up to Storm and dab her forehead with a cloth.

Some of the kind ones come up to me, asking me if Willow is ok. I nod at them and give them a half smile to say thanks, as I am to exhausted and scared to say or do anything else.

Morning is way gone and afternoon comes to a close.

"You now," I say dryly. My throat saw. "She can still hear you. You should talk to her, tell her that your there"

Willow doesn't move. She just nods slowly and places her week head on the pillow next to Storms.

My eyes fill up as I watch in pain. Thinking and praying in my head. I have to be the strong one hear. I am the oldest and I have to look after her, after them both.

I sniff. and get up. "They er will be coming in, in a minute to run some tests and to try and feed her." I tell Willow.

" and..."

I don't want to upset her even more but I cant, I cant just stay In the same room. I cant handle them both, both in pain.

I get up and stretch and I'm about to cry my eyes out, but I don't want to show the pain, make her feel worse. So I lie.

"I'm er just going to the err toilet. And then I think I have some spare change so I'm getting some food from the vending machine" I tell her. " I'm not eating the food from the canteen, it looks vile!" I say trying to make her at least smile. "do you want anything?" I stand there awkwardly waiting. I hold my breath and holding everything in while Willow can see me.

"no.... thank you" she says straight. Still looking down at her holding Storms hand.

"Ok" I croak. I take one last look at Storm and then Willow, I run out as I cant hold it together. conveniently the toilets are straight opposite. I run in and let it all out. I poor my heart out. I grip onto the sink my knuckles turning whiter than my skin is, as I feel like I'm lost in the world and I'm just floating away. I cry and scream and let it all out. I start to cough and splutter to try and get the pain out but no it is still there. I fall to the floor still sobbing, screaming. I hit my fist on the ground and it starts to bleed. I clamber up as I am shaking with fear. I feel sick and my eyes are all blurry. Shakily I turn the tap on, and the freezing cold water comes gushing out. It stings my knuckles but it does sooth it. I start sobbing harder. I'm just so confused and lost. I feel sick and

bluurrrr 

out it comes. I was sick in the sink. I'm shaking again and I slowly lift my head up and out it comes again. I start to cough as it is caught in my throat. I'm sick again. I lift my head up and stare at my self in the mirror. I look a mess. I think of what my life has come to, what Strom and Willows lives have come to. Non of this has helped the pain go away I still feel like a load of crap. I don't see anyone good staring back at me. Not a healthy happy person, but a hurt confused sick person looking back at me, eyes full of pain. Me, that's me. But I think if I feel like this, I always know that Willow or Storm feel ten times worse.

I pull my self together, clear the sink out and splash my face with water. I take a deep breathe and walk out. I walk to the vending machine at the end of the corridor and buy some drinks, cereal bars, crisps and just pretty much all junk food as really that's all you get out of them. I shove all the food in my pocket. I walk back through the door and just about to open the curtain when I can hear Willows voice very quietly but she is whispering but crying softly.

"Its me Storm, Willow. I am hear and I love you soo much, you know that right? I just wish you could wake up right now... wear both lost with out you Storm, please, please wake up..." I sit down next to the curtain but leaning against the wall. I hate hearing Willow so lost and desperate.

"I really thought you know, we were all gonna be ok. Yeah we were running for most of our lives but I thought we could all do it, stick together " she takes a deep breathe but her voice goes all wobbly.

"I thought we could all hand in there" She starts crying into the sheets as it is all muffled.

"Please Storm, please just come back to us, we cant do this with out you, I need you! We both need you!" I lean my head on the wall my heart full of pain I just want It to stop. A tear rolls slowly down my cheek.

I just forget the beeping of the monitor is there. It is kind of comforting, the slow steady pace of it going

beep.

I just think and close my eyes.

beep.

I start to drift of to sleep as I am so exhausted.

Silence, the silence deafens me. Why is there no more beeping? her heart-

Storm hasn't. has she?

ohh noo! Sorry if nothing has happened much, it was just soo sad typing it. I just wanted to show he pain of them both- I am that deep, yes. Hope you enjoyed It as it is a little different of it always being so mad and things going so fast, but it is slow but just as many things go wrong. Thank you guys soo much, plz do all that really nice stuff like voting and commenting because you are beautiful people. Thank you all love u! xxx