erased | Changkyun

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In the morning I put my uniform on and shoes and brush my hair . I went downstairs and ate breakfast.

"Morning - y/n are you okay ?"

I stopped eating . Jb had asked me.

"Yeah why what's wrong is something wrong ?"

"Your eyes are puffy." I mentally slapped myself .

"Yeah just tired anyways I have to go brush my teeth and grab my books meet you later at school ."

I washed my dish quickly and ran upstairs and brushed my teeth and grabbed my bag. I would put makeup on but I really hate makeup and I don't own any makeup so too bad for me.

I ran out the house and walked with jb.

"I dare you to do the pick me dance."

We played Rock ,Paper ,Scissors and whoever lost had to do a dare and in this case I lost. We were already near the school so how much worse can this be. Jb played the song and I admit I was being extra with the dance.

"OOOHHHOOOO YEAHHH!!!" Jb yelled and was clapping and dancing with me too . I couldn't help but laugh . He was being extra too. I got too carried away and I bumped into someone . The person dropped their books.

"Omg I'm so sorry." I didn't even look who it was , i just helped them pick up their things.

"I'm so sorry again , her-...." I froze and I swear I wanted to cry.

"What the hell.... not you again , great way to start my damn morning thanks." He snatched the books away from me.

"Sorry ..... Changkyun ...." I lowered my gaze.

"Hey don't talk to her like she's stupid or something." Jb stepped in front of me and got in front of Changkyuns face.

"Not my fault she bumped me and made me drop my stuff."

"She said she was sorry didn't she ? "

"Tsk..." he made a face and jb was about to turn him round and give him a beat but I stopped him.

"Jaebum don't do it , it was my fault so let's just go...."

"So he shouldn't even be talking to you like you're stupid!."

"Just drop it okay ?!" I walked to the school and found jooheon and Hyungwon talking.

"Morning guys!" I tried my best to be as positive as I could.

"Y/n morning !" They both shouted and gave me a high five.

"I'll be stopping by later before my shift ."

"You're welcome any time !" Jooheon pated my head.

"Alright well I have to go to class see ya later !" I walked to my class but decided to stop by yujus class .

"Yuju! " she was reading and she smiled at me.

"Y/n!" I pulled a chair next to her .

"Shift today ?" She asked and I nodded.

"Break today." And She nodded. We both laughed .

"Yuju ah!" Someone screamed her name and I knew who it was and I rolled my eyes.

"Yah get a room jeez!" Jb came and kissed her cheek and I just felt awkward.

"I'm leaving." They were carried away.
I couldn't help but be happy that they finally knew how they felt towards each other.

I walked in the class and sat at my desk. I pulled up my book and started reading , I was going to get my headphones to listen to music as I was going to read but I heard someone .

"Room .... 1-A? This must be it."

Changkyun ....

He saw me and made a face in disgust. I wanted to cry but I couldn't . We stared at each other for awhile and I broke our gaze and grabbed my earphones and plugged them in. Honestly I was carried away with my reading and I didn't even realize class started . I took out the earphones from my ears and placed them in my pocket.

"Yes ...... y/n can you please explain what I just taught ." Great just great. I looked at the board and saw it was about " why is it hard for people with anxiety?"

I spoke up.

"Okay I wasn't listening but I can sure tell you why It's hard for people with anxiety ,mainly because well of course they have anxiety. There's all types of anxieties GAD , social anxiety, OCD, phobias, PTSD, and so more but they all have something in common, fear , stress, emotional distress, and panicking. Anxiety isn't something that comes over night and leaves , it's different for everyone . Someone who has experienced anxiety knows how hard it is to live a normal life . It's complicated . It's overwhelming, consuming, and it's hard to escape.... It feels like you yourself are collapsing, not only you but everything around you. So what that being said just imagine as if someone was chasing after you trying to kill you , that's what anxiety feels like. I won't go further more because I can go on and on. Excuse me sir." I bowed and sat down in my seat .

My teacher smiled at me and everyone clapped. Gosh , I need to breathe.
I look up front and saw Changkyun looking at me . I furrowed my eyebrows and he just rolled his eyes . I ignored it .

"Alright we'll pick up after lunch you're dismissed ." Yes finally . I got up and went to lunch quickly hoping no one I knew saw me so I could leave the cafeteria. I grabbed my lunch and walked quickly up the stairs . Yup , I'm going to the roof of the school . I needed air . I opened the door and sat down and sighed out . I plugged in my earphones and inserted them in my ears . I started eating my lunch . Today was something .... , my phone buzzed

Yuju: yah! Where are you ?!

You : I just needed some air please don't come I want to be alone .

Yuju: okay but are you okay?

You : yes I'm fine .

Lies

I threw my trash away and lied down on the floor closing my eyes . I heard the door slam and I got up and saw who it was . I got up and grabbed my stuff. I walked passed him but he grabbed my wrist.

"You think you're tough but you're not ....tsk..." I wanted to cry .

"Thanks but I really don't need your opinion." I smiled at Changkyun.

"If I bother you so much why don't you just ignore me? And let go of me ." He growled and let go.

"Whatever ." I opened the door and closed it . I slid down the door and hugged my knees and started crying .

Come y/n you're stronger than this . Pull yourself together .

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Idk why I wrote that paragraph of anxiety. I think people need a better understanding what anxiety is.