Letters

To Anyone Willing To Listen

To my oldest friend, you asked me once how it is that I managed follow and live for Christ with such ease. You could never grasp how I could live a holy life. You tried Christianity, but you felt so sinful and unworthy.

To the man in the coffee shop sitting a few tables away from me, wondering how I could possibly read the bible everyday. You've read the bible, you know how hard many of the things it says can be to read.

To the girl who sits across from me on the subway everyday on my way to work. You've cried for many nights, screaming at a God you don't believe in asking him, "Why?" I know you wondered how I can believe in him at all times, never questioning why, or wondering if he really is there.

To all of you willing to listen, to anyone and everyone; I struggle! I admit to it. So many people believe that just because you're a Christian you aren't allowed to screw up. I screw up...a lot. There was a point where I was so far from God, I'd hit rock bottom. I didn't read a single word of my bible, I didn't utter a breath of prayer. My faith was dwindling. At moments I even questioned His existence. I felt so empty. So alone.

It took my sister falling ill for me to finally cry out to him. He'd wanted me to, he was waiting for me call on him. He wanted to help, but I had to let him.

Trust me when I say this, I am not the only one. We all struggle. We all have our ups and our downs. It's a hard journey, it really is. And God knows that, he gets it. Even Jesus when he walked on this earth was tempted just like we are. He's experienced everything we have, he understands us. That is my comfort!

To all you broken and battered souls. To the girl next door, the man down the street. To you, those who face temptation daily, those who think they are unworthy of Christ.

A letter to anyone and everyone willing to listen. This is for you.

-Someone who understands, someone imperfect.