The Life

Don't do it

Sabrina POV
I woke up in the hospital and I pinched myself cause I don't  to be here but I think I'm dreaming. nope not dreaming . I didn't see Jordi. last time I saw him he was on the floor . dr McAndrew walked in
"What happened" he asked in a serious voice
"Nothing"I said
"Its not time to joke around so tell what happened" he said
"I was going to school-" I said. but he cut me off
"There was no teachers cause they were teaching" I said
"So who did this to you" he asked
"My ex boyfriend Josh" I said
"I thought he was died" Dr.McAndrew said
"Me too but his not" I said
"The police are going to arrest him for putting you and Jordi in the hospital
"What Jordis here where" I said and stood up
"Sit back down" Dr.McAndrew said
"No tell me where Jordi is" I said
"He was with dash, Kara and Emma last time" Dr.McAndrew said
I walked up to the side roof. I opened the door and saw Everyone siting and talking
"Hey Sabrina" everyone said
"Hey" I said
"Come sit" Emma said and patted beside her. I sat beside Emma we talked for an hourlong . it's 8:00
"I wish Leo was here" Dash said
"I don't he would've bossed us around" Emma said
"True, he's guilty for bossing us all around" Kara said
"I'm going to bed"Jordi said
"Me too"Dash said . the boys all left
"Us girl should pull an all nighter" Kara said
"Not like we have better thing to do" I said
"Let's go to my room and watch a movie" Emma said
"Can we watch mean girls"Kara asked
"Sure"Emma and I said
we watched Mean Girls, Bridge To Terabithia and Little rascals. it's 2:00 am. I wanted to go to sleep but I didn't. we talked about life and if we die kind stuff.
"What time is it" Kara asked
"2:07" Emma said
"Good morning" I said we all laughed
"and goodnight" Kara said and fell asleep.
"im gonna go to bed too" Emma said
"I'm gonna be in my room" I said and walked to my room . I sat in my bed and stared at my coat cause there's a pocket knife in my coat I want to cut so bad. so I grabbed my coat and went in my bathroom. Ill locked the door and sat on the counter . I grabbed the pocket knife I dragged it across my wrist. all that I heard in my head was
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
Cut
I cut my thighs also, there was blood dripping from ever inch of my body . I've gotten so used to cutting myself that I didn't even feel a thing. it didn't hurt I was numb. I heard a knock on the door
someone said my name on the other side of the door.
"Who's there" I asked
"Dr.McAndrew" he said
oh crap I'm in trouble now . I hid my pocket knife, but ther was still blood on ground.i squeezed through a little crack of the door and made sure dr.McAndre didn't see anything.i also hid my arms behind my back
"What" I asked
"Why are your arms behind your back" he asked
"why are your arms in he side of your body?" I said
Dr.McAndrew grabbed my arms and saw the cuts
"These are fresh" he said
"Why" he asked
I looked at my feet
"why" he asked again
"I want to be happy" I said and my eyes soon filled with tears
"Why aren't you happy" Dr.McAndrew asked
"would you be happy if you were in a hospital" I said
"No but you have friends here" he said
"so just cause I have friends here doesn't mean i could be happy" I said
dr.McAndrew left the room and locked me in my room
I looked at him through the my room in disbelief.
after he walked away to go get ready for an upcoming surgery he had to do. I looked out my window and thought that's a far drop. and my windows was able to open and had a ledge on the side so...
I sat in my bed and texted Emma and Jordi I told them both.
love you and bye.
I walked up to my window and squeezed myself it ba sin the ledge I saw Emma and Jordi at the door but they didn't have a key. nurse Jackson was paging Dr.McAndrew that was in a surgery . I lifted my arms up
on my sides and looked down

i was gonna do it so I did I fell straight down the last thing I saw was Jordi, Emma, Nurse Jackson and dr.McAndrew going down the elevator that had a window to see outside
and BOOM everything went black