imperfections

amnesia

for ju vvhimsical

have you ever wondered about what having amnesia feels like?

amnesia is defined as a condition in which a person is unable to remember things. it's a gap in one's memory; a condition wherein a person's memory is lost or disturbed.

having your memories fade away?

at first it starts slow; forgetting what you're supposed to do at a certain time or  simply your plans to cook dinner or meet a friend. soon you start to lose memories; happy ones like your childhood or christmas parties with loved ones; sad ones like the first time you experienced heartbreak; or embarrassing ones like the time you got drunk and belted out your undying love for your teacher.

desperately trying to remember?

and at some point you realise; your memory, or what you still have of it, is hazy. it comes in flashes and glimpses like a scattered jigsaw puzzle with a few dozen missing pieces and you can't make sense of anything. you know that whatever it is, it's important to you and you want to keep it close to your heart but you just can't remember --

and soon you start forgetting people.

one day you'll find that you can't put a person's name to a person's face. she appears in your flashes of memory and you know the she's significant in some way but who is she? you don't know anymore. you try to keep the conversation going; plaster a smile on your face; but inside you're panicking because you don't know her. who is she? what's her name? i should remember her but i don't.

all the people around you are strangers.

everyone seems foreign now. you feel alone; everyone around you just looks at you with pity and disappointment because they were close to you, and just like that-- they were forgotten. you feel like you've disappointed them in one way or another and you feel hopeless; because however hard you try, and however much the memories flash through your mind, and however hard the flashes and the faces pull at your heartstrings, you simply can't remember anymore.

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hey guys! so i'm really sorry i didn't update last week; i was really busy and suffering from a lack of inspiration and stuff but i'm back with an update, and hopefully schoolwork doesn't mess up my updating schedule in future. :)

on a side note, i hoped you liked the chapter! do tell me what you thought of it so i can improve :)