Once In A Lifetime.

Damie - Once In A Lifetime: Chapter Twelve

I feel a pair of arms wrap around me and I can't help but flinch. My nostrils are filled with his scent and I realize it's Jamie. I feel so exposed right now and if I'm being honest, I don't want him anywhere near me. I free myself from his hold and distance myself to the other end of my bed, wrapping my blanket around me for protection.
"Dakota, don't fight me. I came all the way here just to see you."
"Don't even dare to think about it, Dornan." I growl when he pouts.
"You cheated on me, you lied to me and now you think you can come here and think everything is fine again? You hurt me, Jamie and I'm leaving you with the broken pieces because I am done picking them up and fixing them for us! I hate feeling this vulnerable, but why the fuck not, right? If we're going to go for honesty, here you have honesty. Apparently it's something that you never learned!" My body is fuming with anger and I can't even control myself. "And you know what the worst part is? I had to fucking read online that Amelia is pregnant again instead of you taking the responsibility into telling me. All the while I thought it was you and me. Us. That we had something special. Little did I know, Dornan. Little did I know." I take a few deep breaths to calm myself down. I guess Jamie is shocked because he hasn't said a word every since I began my tantrum.
"Even if we're able to fix this, I don't know if I can ever trust you again." I whisper and getting out of bed, I leave the room in search for a glass of wine.

"Baby, are you okay? Do you want me to throw him out?" I hear my mother behind me as I pour myself a glass.
"I think I've got this, mom. I've said what needed to be said. I may love him, but this isn't the meaning of love." I smile weakly at her. She walks around the kitchen island and pulls me into her arms.
"Whatever it is you do, I know you will make the right decision. Don't be too hard on him, the man may have his own issues to deal with right now." She whispers in my ears. My mother always sees the good in people.
"Thank you. I'll listen to what he has to say. I love you." I kiss her cheek and let go of her.
"Good night, Coqui." She smiles and I return her smile with one of my own.

I let out a huge sigh and open the door to the back yard. Grabbing the bottle of wine and my glass, I step out into the chilly night and take a seat on one of the chairs near the fire place. Instead of crying, I wanted to try and forget but I know I can't. I remember what my mother once said; "We can only hurt the ones who we truly love." How right she is.

Taking a huge gulp of my wine, I see a figure standing in the doorway. I know it's Jamie but I ignore him, not in the mood to talk. "I'm not going anywhere, Dakota. All I want is us." I can barely hear him from afar. He strolls over to me but decides to keep his distance and takes a seat across from me.
"I'm not in the mood for chitchat, Jamie." I say and pour myself another glass of wine.
"I listened to you throwing a fit at me, now you're going to listen to me!" Wow! I didn't knew he had the balls!
"Fine." I roll my eyes at him.
"I'm not in the mood for chitchat, Jamie." I say and pour myself another glass of wine.
"I listened to you throwing a fit at me, now you're going to listen to me!" Wow! I didn't knew he had the balls!
"Fine." I roll my eyes at him.

"Alright. Let me get some things straight. I never cheated on you, I never lied to you, I have been honest with you from the very beginning. I didn't kiss Amelia, she kissed me and she surely isn't pregnant with my child! How can you think so monstrous of me?!" He hisses at me. "Look, you want honesty, fine. Ask Emily for the video of Amelia kissing me, she'll show you and about the whole pregnancy story... Dakota, I haven't had sex with her in months, a year maybe, if that's what you wanted to hear! It's only you I want." I feel sick after he talks about sex but hide it from him. "It's you I want to grow old with, it's you I want by my side every day and night. You know this yet you choose to believe something that is written in a gossip magazine. How could you do that to me?" Ok, he has a point there but I'm not giving it to him. "Jamie, after seeing that photo, all the trust I had in you vanished. I felt like I was dragged into a massive black hole and that's only because my love for you is so strong. You didn't came to me after it happened, you hid it from me and I had to find it out myself. You hid her pregnancy from me and it's not entirely strange that when you two are still married for the public eye and she is pregnant again, the paparazzi puts 1 and 1 together. They're not stupid, they just don't know the truth and quite frankly, neither do I. It's hard for me to put my trust back in you after you held all this a secret for me. It's not fair." I'm surprisingly calm if I say so myself.

He stands up and takes me completely by surprise when he picks me up. "PUT ME DOWN!" I yell but he ignores me. "SO HELP ME, JAMIE! PUT. ME. DOWN!" I can't believe him. I realize I'm back in my room after he puts me down on the bed.

"You should've asked Emily for the video, she is the one who recorded it! I only held it back from you because I wanted to tell you when we were alone so we wouldn't throw a scene in front of everybody and so I could properly explain what happened. You made the assumption I kissed her, not me! I didn't even knew about her being pregnant up until now. You even knew before me! You keep on telling me that your trust in me has disappeared but what about my trust in you, huh? I mean, couples who really love each other wouldn't doubt each other so easily, now would they?" I swallow hard and hold back the tears that threat to fall again because he's right. Maybe I was too fast at making assumptions. My apology is a whisper but I know he can hear it. "Dakota, don't be sorry. I know the past two years haven't been easy on you, but they haven't been easy on me either. We really need to communicate more and if we really want to be together, we will always find our way back to each other. No matter how hard the journey is." He kisses the top of my head and shifts me onto his lap.

I have no idea how long we sit like this, but a nauseating feeling washes over me. I run to the bathroom and make it just in time when my stomach empties itself in the toilet. Oh fuck, today is not my day! "Are you ok?" I hear Jamie's worried voice at the other end of the door. "Stay there, Jamie." I want to say I'm fine but the man pretends to be deaf sometimes as he enters anyways. He holds my hair and rubs my back softly as I continue to vomit and vomit until I'm dry-heaving. Even though I just had 2 glasses, I think the wine didn't really end well on my empty stomach. I rinse out my mouth and brush my teeth. I want to take a hot bath but I'm too tired. I turn around to wrap my arms around Jamie and lifting me up, he lays me down back in bed. "Are you sure you're ok? I think we need to get you to a doctor." No doctors, please. "I'm fine, thank you. Wine and an empty stomach don't really cope well." I give him a small smile.
"You should always eat before drinking. I know you're not in the mood for food right now, but perhaps I'll make you breakfast tomorrow morning if you don't snore and keep me awake all night." I pretend to be shocked and throw my pillow at him while he undresses himself. "I do not snore!"
"Why do you think I'm always late? It's because you keep me up at night!" He climbs into bed next to me and laughs. It's music to my ears. I should feel offended but after a day like this, I know he's joking with me. "You're never late with me." I say proudly.
"That's true. It's one of the many things I love about you." He presses his lips on mine and kisses me. "One. Of. The. Many. Things?" I murmur against his lips. "Hmm hmm." He nods.
"Well, what are the other things you love about me, then?" I'm eager to know. "You'll find out one day, my love." Giving me one last kiss, he pulls me to him and closes his eyes. I know we haven't solved everything yet, but like he said; if we really want to be together, we will always find our way back to each other.

~ Author's note:
Hello wonderful people❤ I know that I haven't updated for a few days but it has been a very busy weekend. I hope you will all enjoy this chapter and again; thank you for reading my story.
I love you all! ❤❤❤
Mandy. ~