Friend-Zoned

Part 34

" And as much as I want to be the old Ethan- the Ethan you loved... I can't. And you can't seem to get that through your head so- Ella-"

" Ethan stop-"

" Get rid of it. And even if you do keep it, I don't want to be involved. I want a normal life. Even if I have to send you away with it. So do me a favor, and get rid of it-"

" What the fuck?!", I slapped Ethan. He stayed staring at the ground.

" I don't want to be apart of its life-", Ethan shouted.

" Good- I don't think I'd want our child to be anything like you.", I wiped away my tears and fought them as I ran to he car.

I know what Ethan was doing. I know why he told me those horrible things. To send me away. So he could have a normal life. And he can burn in hell for that.

I grabbed my keys and got in my car. I started the car and wiped away a tear that had fallen.

I looked up at Grayson's window. He sat at his computer, his head in his hands, crying. He wiped away his tears and looked out his window.

His puffy, tearful eyes landed on me. He sniffled and got up. He covered the window with a black curtain.

I took a deep breath. I'm not going to cry. I wont-

I raced home, tears flying off my face, and my heart feeling as if it were ripped from my chest.

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I can't do this. I can't... I stared at myself in the mirror.

Mascara poured from my eyes that were red and sunken in sadness.

My life sucks. It can't get better.

I opened my bathroom cabinet and pulled out my pain medicine that was used for my head when I was beat up by Katherine and... yeah.

I stared at it. Then at myself. I began to sob uncontrollably as I spun open the container. My hands were shaking. I was dizzy. I couldn't see straight.

It'll only get worse. You can escape the- this pain. This life. You can escape everything.

I poured them out on my hand and got a glass of water.

This baby- I don't deserve it. It doesn't deserve to have this fucked up life. It deserves better-

I lifted the pills to my mouth with my shaking hands and tossed them in my mouth.

It's almost over. I told myself.

I lifted the water and my bathroom door busted open.

" What the fuck?!", Averys eyes water as she ran to me.

" What the fuck did you do?!", she slapped me causing me to spit out the pills.

" Go away!", I cried and poured more pills on my hand but she slapped them away from me.

" Don't you fucking dare! How many have you fucking taken?!", a tear shed from Averys eyes.

" None.", I said motionless.

" Oh my god.", she sighed in relief and pulled me into a hug.