Thoughts

I Don't know What It Is About You

I don't know what it is about you that makes me feel insane.

Each time I look at you,

Each time I wander,

Each time I see you walking down the corridor.

Each time you pass by.

Damn, I'm totally in a state of non-compos-mentis.

My friends and even my mom and dad told me that they never seen me so euphoric before.

Wondrous and ecstatic.

Yet behind those enthusiasm is a dead soul inside.

Praying.. Hoping.... Waiting...

Praying for everything...

Hoping for something..

Waiting for nothing..

I don't know what it is about you that made me perceive this things.

I was a non-believer of deep affection till you came.

I adore how you sip mystery and paradox as your daily cup of tea.

I adore how you take people's happiness as your dose of medicine, bruh.

How it works is an enigma to me.

Yet I know that this epistle won't be a big deal.

For I know that I don't even matter to you.

I'm just a girl asking for you to notice her.

Even if she knows that she doesn't even exist in your realm.

I don't know what it is about you that makes me feel thankful..

I thank you for bringing colors and luminescence in my dimmed universe.

You're truly a natural agent that stimulates sight and makes things in my life visible.

I thank you for being my catalyst.

I thank you for being my subject in every sentence.

I thank you for being my Jon Snow in my own fictitious kingdom.

Lastly, i thank you for waking me up. 

Waking me up to reality, That you and I doesn't exist. That there's no love except ourselves.

It's harder than it's seems.

Yet I need to get going because I will only hurt myself.

I don't know what it is about you that makes me forget how to lose someone and makes me remember how to love again.

Upon writing this all I know is you, you are a beautiful catastrophe that had ever happened in my life. I like you. I don't ask you to reciprocate the feeling. All I ask you is to respect what i feel because falling for you was never something I planned. Thank you..