The Boy Who Brought me to Heaven

Chapter Nineteen

Sam's POV

After Niall clearly tried to start a fight and I caught Bekah giving him her terrifying dealth glare i went outside. I found the grassiest part of the front lawn and lay there. I looked up at the bright clear blue sky and the passing thunder clouds. Did it rain? Huh. Weird. My view of the clouds was partially ruined by the huge bare tree, i didn't mind though. I closed my eyes letting the sweet breeze brush my face, letting the birds sing me their beautiful songs take me from a place like this. One filled wth so much hate and horrible memories. Instead of here in the front yard i went to the place where i lived in Ireland, Jordan wasn't awfully sick, Perrie and Bekah didn't have such a aweful life, and everything was just how i wanted it. My fantasy vanished at  the sound of the front door closing and feet coming down the steps. I opened my eyes but didn't look. I already knew who it was.

"Hi Niall." I smiled up at the sky, I actually like his name.

" What?" He asked.

" I jus said Hi." I sat up and popped my back.

" Oh hi."

"Hmm... What's wrong?" I asked.

" Never said there was anything wrong." He looked at the place where the cemeant and grass met before walking onto it.

"I guess i just sensed something wrong." I said laying back down folding my arms under my head.

"Why?" Niall wondered out loud and i saw him cover his mouth but try to cover it as a yawn.

" I don't know just got the feeling." I said.

"No that's not what i meant." He shook his head.

" No?" I asked raising my eyebrow.

"Why? Why are you being nice to me when I was being rude to you?" He asked.

I sat up crossing my legs," I like to forgive and forget." I shrugged.

"But I continue to be rude." he pushed.

"Niall I like to forgive them after the act is done and forget when I close my eyes at the end of the day." I said trying to hide the begging in my voice. Why couldn't he understand.

"So if some one raped you, you would forgive them after it was done and then when you went to bed?" He asked.

"Well I couldn't forgive anything like that but forgetting would be a must." I said queasy .

"What?" he sneered.

"what are you whating?" I distracted.

"You being queasy. Why?"

"no specific reason." I shrugged.

"Did, did you get raped?" Niall asked.

Just at that moment Ashton, Bekah and Perrie came out the front door. Bekah had a questionable expression. She probably was suspicious about Niall coming out here or something. Ashton was looking at Bekah with sparkling eyes. Perrie was skipping along to my white jeep. My step father Steve, who was totally amazing, got it for me because he works at I90-Motors&Rvs. I never took Drivers Ed. My mom taught me and my test was with my grandpa on my biological fathers side, he'd ever been in one single wreck, ran a light, or even gotten a ticket. Once I passed his test and then I drove Steve's car to drop him off at work he yank me out of the car and showed me my new jeep. I loved it.

I got up and avoided Niall's stare. I didn't feel like telling him anything. I didn't have to either because he didn't ask. I climbed in the car with Bekah behind me Ashton in the middle and Perrie behind the passenger seat. Niall took that place because after I darted to the car he just stood there watch as the air floated by before Bekah reached up and honked the horn, I began to yell at her but decided against it and just playfully punched her. She only laughed.

When Niall climbed into the car everything went silent. It was like I was driving alone. I reached for the radio to lessen the awkwardness and Niall must of had the same idea. Our hands touched the knob my hand on the cold green knob and Niall's on mine. It was the first time we've made any contact beside that with the eyes since we met the day Jordan asked to see them from the Make a Wish program. All five of them, Louis, Harry, Zayn, Liam and Niall the whole One Direction. Niall didn't like me right away.

I retreated my hand as soon as the contact was made and continued driving. Niall turned on the radio and one of my favourite songs began to play. Viva La Vida by Coldplay. We sung our heats out to the song, I giggled occasionally at Perrie trying to follow along with everyone. I turned the volume down as another song came on.

"Good job everyone, next time I think we need to not be so perfect because perfect is boring." I said jokingly.

"''Sam you laugh A LOT." Bekah pointed out.

" Uh yea I do."I chewed the inside of my cheek.

" It's fine your just being your carefree self." Ashton tried to pass casually.

"You guys are acting a bit strange." I laughed my cheeks blushing.

"Sissy why is Sam shy?" Perrie asked. Its like they were reading their scripts for a movie.

" That's just who she is Perrie." Bekah winked up at me.

" GUYS STOP!" Niall yelled and I brought the car to a halting stop.