Innocent as you- (lzayas' love-'shizaya')

Heart healing

"AHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA......." I was screaming and izaya also screamed. Ohh shit I was afraid to him. Aaaa??? 'But why is he half nude? I am sure that yesterday I was changed his clothes and dressed him completely. But where is his pant?'

"I-izaya...w-where is your p-pant??" I asked from him and then he looked at his lower part.. I saw his face was red and,

"You pervert stupid kidnapper...." He hit me and ran into my room and closed the door... Ki-Kidnapper?? Really? When I asked from him to come with me he said 'okay'..  Anyway what happened to his dress..? 'Did I do something to him while he sleeping? No... I didn't do anything, right?' But why was his face blushing? Wait.., was he embarrassing?

"Izaya a-are y-you okay? I-I did not mean to s-scared y-you.. I-I am sorry.. I didn't do anything.. I swear I did only change your clothes.. Izaya please just c-come out. I just wanna talk with you." I told him very clam tone. I don't wanna be a monster in front him.. Not again.. Then I heard his cute voice through the door..

"M-mmmm I-I was just surprised that all.. I will come out a-after y-you gone.." He told me.. I wanna talk with him no matter what. I wait for this moment three years..

"I-I wanna talk with you.. I just want to talk with you.. No matter what.. No matter how long you will take to open the door.. I will be here.. So can you open the door for me?".. I asked from him.. There were silence for a small moment  and then I heard the unlocked the door.. I wait until the door open for me.. If he don't open it I will more gentle and leave him alone.. Because he is the one who injury very badly.. Not me.. Because of me he is still suffering. I don't wanna see he leaving me. Not again....

Izaya pov

I heard his gentle word through the door.. I wanna see him.. I wanna talk with him.. I wanna apologize from him what I had done to him. So I unlocked the door.. but I didn't open the door.. I can't still look at him..

"S-shizuo I-I really sorry for what I had done to you.. I thought this about thousand time.. That it had to be better, if I was not came to your life in the first place. Sorry for what I had told you in the past.. Sorry for what I had done to you.." I told him.. But its not enough.. I want to apologize from him more and more..

"Do You remember the first time time we met...? Then I was surprised about your ability.. Its amazing. Thats why I love to fight with you. I thought then I can be knew about you more than anyone. But I mess all thing.. I just a lonely one and I didn't care about anyone. I just thought to keep away me from my stupid boring life. Thats why I was played with you life like a shit. You are always right I am pest and I always lied to you.. You never been a monster.. It's all lie.. I lied you because I can't control you as my please. I am liar and I can't protect people who care about me. So just let me go and I won't come to your life again.. This time I will vanish from your life forever.." I told him and before wiped my tears.. The door was opened and shizou came to inside.. I looked amazed because of his suddenly action.

"Just don't go.. Okay.. I-It's all because of me.. I am sorry izaya.. You lost her because of me. If you hadn't meet me, then this won't be happen.. Y-you a-are r-right I-I a-am really a really m-monster..." He was begun to crying like a child.. 'He is suffering because of me? He is regretting because of me? I can't be this.. What should I do? Why is he crying? S-Stop it.....'

"Just don't cry o-okay.. I d-don't know what to do?" I told him, but anyway I hugged him and patted his back.. I thought I was the one who suffering but he is the one who regretting more than me.. For my surprise he hugged me back. 

Badump Badump Badump... 

'I can hear his heart beat very clearly.. I feel his warmth.... I feel his breath.. I feel his warm tear drops.. He-he has changed.. Recently he has been very manly..a gentlemen. Thats good, now I can leave him without any worry..'