Secrets In Me

Chapter 10

(Picture is not mine)

I was now back on the surface walking to the house, and saw people weren't staring at me weirdly anymore. That's good now all I have to do is fix up the mix up with Papyrus and the others. I finally got into the house and called out for Papyrus.

"Papyrus I'm home!"

I saw Papyrus shot out of the corner in the kitchen and looked at me in surprise.

"Sorry for leaving like that I was just over whelmed and I promise to never do-"

However before I could even finish Papyrus launched at me and pulled me into a hug.

"Don't you EVER DO THAT AGAIN!!!" Papyrus exclaimed with tears in his eyes.

". . .Aw paps I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you..." I stopped talking and hugged Papyrus back.

"I WAS SO WORRIED WHEN YOU LEFT! I TRIED TO CALL YOU BUT YOU LEFT YOUR PHONE ON THE TABLE! THEN I CALLED EVERYONE ELSE AND ASKED THEM IF THEY KNEW WHERE YOU WHERE. WHEN THEY TOLD ME THEY DIDN'T I GOT EVEN MORE WORRIED, AND IT WAS GETTING LATE SO BY THE. I WAS FREAKING OUT. I WENT INTO THE KITCHEN TO PACK SOME THINGS, SO I COULD GO OUT AND FIND YOU. THEN YOU OPENED THE DOOR AND NOW I AM SO HAPPY!" Papyrus cried hugging me even tighter.

"I'm so sorry Paps....I won't do that again..."

"PROMISE!!!"

"I promise..."

Papyrus let out a reliefed sigh and hugged me even tighter. The guilt from earlier seem to double in size. I didn't mean to make him worry so much. I guess that is my fault for leaving like that.

"SANS..."

"ya?"

Papyrus pulled away from me and gave me a serious look. "I WANT YOU TO ANSWER HONSETLY...WHAT IS WRONG?"

I started to get uncomfortable from the question. I don't know how many times he asked me that question, and I would always give him a fake answer.

"I uh nothing is wr-"

"SANS STOP LYING TO ME AND TELL ME THE TRUTH!!!" Papyrus screamed.

". . ."

"THIS IS AFFECTING YOU SANS DON'T YOU GET IT?! NOT ONLY IS IT AFFECTING YOU IT IS AFFECTING ME TOO!!"

". . ."

"YOU KEEPING THIS IN ISN'T HELPING YOU SANS...I CAN TELL YOU ARE HURTING A LOT...AND YOU KEEP PUSHING ME AWAY LIKE YOU ARE ALRIGHT..."

". . ."

"I JUST WANT TO HELP YOU SANS...PLEASE LET ME HELP YOU...I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU CRY AT NIGHT...WHY YOU ARE MEAN AROUND THE HUMAN...WHY ARE YOU SO WARY AROUND THE HUMAN?"

". . ."

". . .DO YOU NOT TRUST ME?"

"I do trust you papyrus but-"

"BUT WHAT?! WHAT IS KEEPING YOUR FROM TELLING ME?! WHY-"

"You wouldn't understand!!!"

Papyrus stopped shocked at my sudden out burst.

"You would understand any of it you just can't! It won't even matter it is all going to be FREAKING reset!!! Nothing even matters nothing will change telling you this!!! We're all going to go to sleep and next thing you know your back in the freaking ground!!!"

Papyrus didn't say anything as I lost control and spilled out everything.

"I hate not being able to control my own life! I hate seeing you get hurt everytime I close my eyes! I hate knowing that one day I will wake up and be back in that prision!"

I could now feel tears fall down my face as my pupils seem to disappeared.

"I...hate...reliving...the same memories...over....and....over...and-"

"SANS..."

"I hate not being able to protect you!"

I wasn't able to control the tears as they feel down my cheekbones. I tried not to fall into a sobbing mess, but it was so hard.

"I...just want....everything to be.....back to normal...."

Finally I broke down and started to sob right in front of Papyrus. I tried hard to keep myself together. However I couldn't control it, since I had all this in for so long, I never realized how much in pain I was in.

"I....*hic*...just....want...*hic*...t-"

Quickly Papyrus pulled me in to a hug, trying not to cry. I stood there in shock for a while. Then I wrapped my arms around him and started to cry.

"...ITS OK SANS...IM SORRY I PUSHED YOU...IT GOING TO BE ALRIGHT..."

*sobbing*

"...LET IT OUT....LET IT OUT...."

I have no idea how long we were standing there hugging. Tibia honest, heh, I was so embarrassed. I was crying in front of my little brother. It was embarrassing, but it was nice to let it out. I can already hear Flowey, back on Mt. Ebott, laughing at me. But I could care less right now, as long as I am with papyrus. Finally I pulled myself together, trying turn back to my more chill self.

"Heh...wow I don't think I cried like that for a while..."

"...WELL ITS NOT BAD TO CRY...IT SHOWS HOW MUCH YOU CARE..."

"Heh...ya..."

"WELL..."Papyrus said standing up wiping away some tear, "I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT RESETS AND ALL, BUT YOU CAN TELL ME TOMORROW. YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT TODAY..."

"Thanks paps your the greatest..."

"I KNOW I AM."

"Do you want me to read you your bedtime story first?"

"NAH IT IS OK WE CAN SKIP IT FOR TONIGHT. YOU LOOK VERY TIRED, SO YOU SHOULD GET SOME REST, OK?"

"...ok..."

"GOODNIGHT SANS!"

"Night bro thanks again..."