Attached Strings √

Chapter 29

I ran to the lake. I was not ready to face anyone, I just wanted to be alone. Multiple questions were running around my head.

How could Paul do this to me? Who was that girl? What was she to him?

What was sad about that whole situation was that I had already pictured a future as his real girlfriend.

I sat there and I thought about everything. I had trusted Paul so much. It had been so long since he'd brought a girl to the apartment so I automatically thought he'd stopped bringing girls over.

Clearly, I thought wrong.

I had stopped crying but the realisation of how wrong I was brought the tears back. I cried and cried until I received a text message from Tina.
I opened it.

Tina BFF:
Told you to text me when you get home, dummy.

I had totally forgotten to text Tina but I was in no mood to reply to her text so I just put my phone back in my pocket. I went back to thinking about my life and its problems. I was already starting to let Paul in. I was starting to trust him and he had slowly managed to break one of my walls down.

Him teaching me to play the guitar made me feel special and cared for. It made me feel like I had an effect on him that nobody else had. The fact that he only played music for me made me feel like I actually held a special purpose in his life but I guessed all that was fake - just like our relationship. That incident made me realise one thing; I was not special to Paul. All that was just an illusion that I had created in my head. My phone vibrated in my pocket and I took it out. It was a text from Paul.

Jerky Paul:
I'm sorry.（︶︿︶）

Of course he was not sorry. Paul knew that I would come back home so why would he bring a girl if he didn't want me to see her? Why didn't he keep her in his bedroom or something? I didn't reply to his text then another one came.

Jerky Paul:
Please hear me out.

I didn't answer that one either. I did not want to hear anything coming out of his mouth. I was not ready to be lied to.

Jerky Paul:
Why did you come back in a different outfit anyway?

So he noticed my change of clothes, huh? At a time like this, he actually had time to question me about my clothes? I was touched but I was still not willing to talk to him.

Jerky Paul:
Where are you? It's getting late.

I lifted my head and I noticed that he was right. It was indeed getting late and the weather was also starting to get chilly. I figured it was unsafe for me to be there all alone so I went to Tina's place.

I got there and found her in the kitchen. As soon as she saw the state I was in, she pulled me into a warm hug and the tears came back again. I was getting tired of crying but I just couldn't help it.

"Sshh... It's okay. You're with me now. It's fine." She told me while rubbing circles on my back. She carried on with the comforting words until I broke the hug. She offered me a glass of water and I gulped it all down in one go.

"What happened?" I had been waiting for her to ask me that. I told her the story of how I found the apartment. "I went inside and found bottles of alcohol tossed around," she nodded for me to continue, "and there were two girls in the house."

"Oh, Chloe." Her grip on my hand tightened.

"One was sitting on Luke's lap," an emotion flickered in her eyes when I told her this but she was trying really hard to act like she was not phased but she was my friend and I knew her but I decided not to dwell on that and so I continued, "another one was with Paul." I said the last part so bitterly and with so much hatred.