⚠️ HUGE HUGE TRIGGER WARNING SELF HARM AND ANOREXIA ⚠️
Gemini's POV
My parents are fighting
Cut one
Nobody loves you
Cut two
That bad test grade
Cut three
Nobody left
Cut four.
I walked out of the bathroom with my cuts bandaged and into my room. Why do I continue living. I had always thought that, my life is a living nightmare, it goes something like this: Parents fight over a bad grade, cut, stay up all night because I'm scared of sleeping, wake up tired, eat nothing, parents fight about that, repeat. It's my life at this point. I try so hard to follow in the footsteps of my sibling(S). It never works out. Now it's time to sleep, but I'll be up all night so what's the point? I get in bed and, automatically the voices come. Why did you eat that today? You shouldn't be sleeping you should be exercising to burn it off! Why didn't you cut deeper? Wait I know, you deserve to be in pain and live, no happiness. Did you really make a bad grade? That's going to ruin your life! "It will not! I'm okay I'm aloud to eat Ana; I deserve to die so I'll finally be happy Deb; Honestly why me?!" I scream at the voices. Suddenly they're gone. I can finally sleep. I shut my eyes and what awaits me are nightmares upon nightmares.
I wake up and it's time for school. I hate it, but I do it. I go to the bathroom and step on the scale, still not my goal weight. Honey you'll be there if you listen to me and when you need to, listen to Mia. I hear my stomach growl so I grab my water bottle and chug it down. The satisfaction of being hungry but drinking water instead is so amazing. I go on with my morning routine, making sure to rewrap the cuts on my wrist. I pick out a black sweater with black jeans and converse. I grab my book and backpack and start to head out the door. "Gemi, have you eaten?" My mother asks. "Yes mother, Im full too." I replied back and stormed out the door to the bus. Same routine, get on the bus and listen to music until we were there.
I got off the bus and saw Sagittarius waiting on one of his friends. I waved to him and he waved back. I went to my locker and got my stuff for class. I sit in front of Sagittarius and he hasn't noticed my cutting so hopefully he doesn't today. I sat down in my seat and started working. I felt a presence and knew it was Sagittarius. "Hey Gemi, how's it- what is that?" He asked worried. "What's wha- oh it's nothing I swear, just the cat." I said back. "No, it's not I can tell. Gemi come into the hallway with me." He said sternly grabbing my other wrist. We walked into the hallway. "How long?" He asked when defeat in his eyes. "Three years." I replied not looking at him. "W-why?" He asked tears forming in his eyes. "Because, nobody cares, my parents fight, I get bad grades, I DESERVE the pain Sagittarius, I really do." I said breaking down in tears. "You mean so much to me please stop." He said hugging me. "If you have nobody to talk to, I'm here always Gemini. Never ever do this please!" He whispered into my ear. He let go of me and planted a small kiss onto my lips, then lifted up my sweater sleeve revealing many scars and recent cuts. He leaned down and kissed them. "Gemini, look at me. I'm so sorry I wasn't here to help you sooner. So, will you be my girlfriend so I can be there forever?" He asked standing up and looking me in the eyes. "Yes, its hard to save someone that's too deep under for human life to exist though." I said shaking. Then he grabbed my face and kissed me, full of passion. I slowly started to kiss back and then we pulled away for air. "Thank you." I whispered and went back to class.
A/N Thanks so much for reading, please comment suggestions!!
