Sweater Weather (Lauren/you)

Chapter 6

Y/N POV

I had a panic attack

It was nothing new to me, when I was younger I had stage fright so you could guess how terrified I was of performing in front of people, even though most of the time I could control it, it was still scary, how I couldn't hear the sounds coming my way and how I felt like oxygen wasn't arriving at my lungs, it was awful, but at the end of the day those were just chemical reactions 

But this time was different, I couldn't control it, I was used to big amounts of people, the difference was that they weren't focused on me, they were on their own thing, I felt threaten 

I had no idea how many time I was without knowing what was going on, but it wasn't a lot, my eyes started to open and the light coming my way was filled with shadows, the room was still filled with people

"She's waking up!" 

Someone yelled and I recognised that voice, it was Warren, my band mate, it was nice to hear his voice, especially after only being surrounded by people I had never seen before, well Lauren and the girls were in there, but they couldn't notice I was feeling overwhelmed, it wasn't their fault, they had no idea I could arrive to that point 

I fully opened my eyes, I could see clearly now, the room wasn't filled with people, only the Fifth Harmony well now Fourth Harmony girls  and my band mates, I felt safe with them 

"Oh my god, are you okay?'" Marcos, my other band mate asked me meanwhile he kept the girls away from me, they tough it was their fault I got a panic attack, they were basically my overprotective siblings 

"Everything is okay, It's not like I had a heart attack guys" I giggled trying to lift the tension that was feeling in the room but they kept quiet,  I could only focus my sight on Lauren, I had never seen a look like that on her face, she was looking a the floor, and playing with her hands, she was either nervous or simply ashamed of something, she was probably the one that called the producers and told them about me 

"You scared us, dude, I knew I had to get them away from you when they surrounded you, they were like hungry wolves" Marcos giggled back at me

I couldn't answer Marcos comment because I was interrupted by someone clearing their throat, it was Lauren, she still had that look on her face but she still tried to give a little smile 

"Hey Y/N, can we talk?" Lauren asked me  "Alone" she continued, my band mates looked at me to see if I was okay with that and I simply gave them and a small nod, everyone got out of the backstage room leaving me alone with the green eyed girl 

"I don't even know where to start" She told me as she sat next to me  "I guess I should say sorry, I thought it was a great idea to call them and tell them about you, the girls even supported my idea, now I know it was stupid, I should have asked you before I acted" 

"Hey, you don't need to apologize, you did those things with a pure heart, nice intentions, I should say thank you," I told Lauren as she finally smiled again, it was the kind of smile she would get when she was feeling comfortable 

"But I still caused you a panic attack, I had one of an airport once, it was horrible" Lauren started to talk as I tried to cuddle her, talking about these topics was always hard, my first thought was keeping her near of me 

She blushed 

"You don't need to talk about it if you don't feel safe," I told her trying to get her comfortable 

"It was nothing, I ended up hiding in the bathroom to get away, I ran, you froze, we have different ways of handling it" 

"Then  I blacked out"