This Dark Place (Poems)

I want to just Kill Myself

This isn't a joke anymore,
I wish death would come and knock on my door,
Come on death what are you waiting for,
I can't wait to see the pain you have in store.

I just want to kill myself,
I wish I were in bad health,
I wish my family had wealth,
Then I would be somewhere else.

You think I'm not sad,
But I am,
What I feel was never the plan.

Please I beg of thee,
Let my soul be free,
Lead me to darkness and greed,
Just let me be who I want to be.

I miss your face,
You never made a mistake,
I miss your lies,
They made me feel pretty for a time,
I miss your voice,
Walking away was your choice,
I miss your kisses,
I miss your touch,
I just wish I were enough.

Try to care,
Thats all I dare,
You make me want to pull out my hair,
I fucking hate it when you stare.

With your "love" in mind,
I shall die,
Try to feel sad inside,
You can't hide your feelings all the time.