Why Me? A Daveed Diggs X Reader

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Your POV

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I slammed my hand down on my alarm clock. 5:30am. Another day of work.

I got out of bed and looked in the mirror.

Why am I so ugly? Who would want someone like me? I'm so worthless.

These thoughts raced through my head every morning. I'm beginning to not even see the point in waking up anymore.

I got undressed and stepped into the shower. I cleaned my body and washed my hair but no matter what I did, I still felt dirty. Flashbacks raced through my head as I slumped down the shower wall.

Flashback
"You little slut! You slept with him didn't you!" Jason screamed in my face

"Jason no, i-i didn't sleep with him. Please. Believe me" I begged

"Why should I! You fucking slept with my best friend!" He yelled

"Your so called best friend raped me Jason!" I screamed

"Bullshit y/n! Brian would never do that! You're just being a bitch and won't own up for being such a slut!" He yells

"It's not Bullshit Jason! He fucking raped me! He threw me over that table and he fucking raped me!" I yelled back

"Get out!" He yelled

"And go where!?" I said

"Rot in a gutter and die for all I care! Just get the hell out of my house!" He screamed and pointed to the door

I grabbed my purse and left.

End of flashback

I sighed and got out of the shower. I splashed cold water on my tear stained face and dried it. I got dressed in my uniform and did my makeup. I started my walk to work and went on Spotify. I turned the Broadway Playlist on shuffle and all that's known came on. That song always made me smile. Once I got to work I punched in and went to my computer. I started working and my boss, Bill, came over.

"Hello y/n. Glad to see you today" he smiled while rubbing my back.

"Hello Bill. Nice to see you as well" I smiled back, a fake one of course.

Bill has always been very "touchy feely" towards me since I started working here. I didn't like it but I need this job and I didn't want him to fire me if I brought it up, so I just tried my best to ignore it. 10 hours later my work day was over and I could go home. Or at least the place I called home. Once Jason kicked me out I managed to get an apartment. It's not that great but it's a roof over my head.

I punched out and left the office. I turned on Spotify and put the Broadway Playlist on shuffle and a suggested song came up. What'd I miss from Hamilton. Hamilton? I haven't heard that musical before. I listened to the song and it seemed pretty interesting. It mentioned Thomas Jefferson which confused me a bit. Once I got home I looked up the musical.
"Hamilton: An American Musical is a sung-through musical about the life of American Founding Father Alexander Hamilton, with music, lyrics and book by Lin-Manuel Miranda" (a/n: that's actually what comes up if you Google it) I decided to give it a listen. 2 hours and 22 minutes later I was in tears. It was such a good musical. This lin guy is a genius. (Guy's while I was writing this part Daveed liked my tweet. I'm not okay right now. Send help😂)

I read a bunch of stuff about the musical and followed everyone on social media and some fan accounts. Most of the cast was pretty cute, not gonna lie. I made a sandwich for dinner and went to bed.