Feelin lost on this rocky road of my life
Every scar I carry runs deep like a knife
I try to help, nurture, carry, and love
But for myself I possess none of the above
Digging through the rubble to find relief
The breathless struggling leaves me hopeless in disbelief
How do I find myself out of this selfless maze
Finding less of me more often with the passing days
I don't speak because I pray for my silence to be strength
Running this race, staying in this game, striding
every length
My heart cries for peace, my sanity has gone under
Leaving me loving and confused, how I'm here is a wonder
I hate that my pulse quickens and I feel the sweat
Wanting to run, wanting to fight, all while filled with regret
What do you do, what is expected of you?
When the reality is false, and no one seeks truth
I don't know how to do this, I've tried thousand times
Every breath I take doesn't even feel like mine
It transforms into whoever's in my scheme of life rhymes
My facial expressions down to the way I flip my hair are observed
But when did your opinion your judgment be the holy verbs
To tell me what I am, tell me what I can't do
In all this dictatin, who's checkin for you?
Last time I checked, you were human too
I guess life happenings and some-odd years
Got you desensitized to others' weaknesses and fears
No, I don't always speak up when people think I should
I would shut of my conscience and hurt you too if I could
Maybe if I could feel life through your pain
This love wouldn't be such a strain
Trying to be that one for you to maintain
They say pain is weakness leaving the body where is my gain
At any moment I can open my mouth and say
Even if it's negative, the things you expect me to anyway
It feels like nothing I do is right if one thing is said wrong
I've travelled this road before, God why for so long?
I'm scared of lonely, I hate change
I want my life to be rearranged
I'm not meant for this life, forever in a cage
Peace eludes me in this constant maze of rage.
