Broken Inside - Completed!!

I miss him. And I need him.

I woke up early. Danny was crying. I walked over to his crib and picked him up.

"Hey, how's my little man doing?" I asked him and he stopped crying and looked at me with his big brown eyes. I sighed and fed him.

"Mommy, when's daddy comming home?" He asked me. His big eyes seemed to get bigger.

"Hunny I told you, I don't know." I layed him down and started tearing up and whispered to myself:

"He's never coming back." I bursted into tears and went into the living room. I didn't want to wake Danny back up. I looked at the clock and just sat on the couch and cried.

"It's all my fault. If I could've just told him how I felt I wouldn't be here all alone. I walked away from him. Why am I the one that's broken. He seems so happy without me. How is he holding up?" I was talking to Jayy.

"Well, he may seem happy, but that's just for the fans. He's really depressed and hardly ever says anything to anyone anymore. He really misses you, Molli. Please come back."

I sighed. "Jayy, I know he does, but I can't just come back and pretend like nothing happened. He really hurt me, and I just can't get over the giant scar he left on my heart. I can't come back.... But can you come visit me?" I just couldn't face Dahvie. Not now, not ever.

"I don't know. But I can't help you with that. I know what he did was wrong, but he wasn't thinking clearly. And you shouldn't keep him from Danny. He's Dahvie's kid too. He got on the bus after our show tonight and just started cutting. So much BLOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! And then he just cleaned it up and layed down and started crying. He locked the door an won't come out. I'm seiously worried!!!" Jayy was crying.

I started crying myself. "When's your next show here?" I asked him, trying not to choke on my tears.

"Umm... June 12th" He whispered the last part.

"WHAT!?!?! You are fucking kidding me right!" I screamed.

"No. That's the only way you can see us. I'll drop off your pass tomorrow. Good luck buddy" Jayy told me and hung up.

June 12th. The day Danny was born, also the day that Dahvie cheated on me.