Broken Inside - Completed!!

See, This Is Why I Slapped You!

                                                                Jayy's POV

Every one looked so happy seeing their friends and family. I just wish my brother Damon (deefizzy) was here. He stopped talking to me when I told him I was going to be in BOTDF. He's 17, but I was always his hero. When I had left 2 years ago, I sat him down and told him that I had other stuff to attend to. I tried to explain to him that this was a big break for me, but he wasn't buying it. I still rememeber his words, and they still break my heart everytime I remember them.

"I fucking hate you! How the fuck could you just leave me like this. You're my own BROTHER for God's fucking sake! You wouldn't believe how much I'm gonna miss you! But don't even try and apologize, don't EVER FUCKING TALK TO ME AGAIN! YOU'RE THE WORST BROTHER EVER!!!"

"You're the worst brother ever." Those words still haunt me. I go over to Dahvie and tell him I'm gonna go upstairs. He looks concerned.

"Why bro? Kat's here, don't you wanna talk with her?"

"No, tell her I'm sorry. I'll talk to her later tonight though. Tell her to text me if she can stay over tonight."

"Okay?" Dahvie says, still looking concerned. I just turn around and drag myself to my bedroom. I climb under my covers and grab the picture of me and Damon off my dresser. He would always be my little brother, and I would always love him, whether he hated me or not.

Knock knock.

"Go away!" I yell through my tears. "I don't wanna see anybody!" I cried even harder.

"Are you, crying?" A familar voice said.

"No, I just got hairspray in my eyes." I said, silently sobbing and trying to wipe my tears away.

"Wow. The brother I knew doesn't cry! But I guess you changed over two years. Sigh, well I guess I'll just leave if you don't wanna see me." Damon. I jumped up and ran to the door and threw it open to see him walking away.

"Where the FUCK do you think your going!?!?!" I yelled, throwing my arms open for a hug. Damon ran and hugged me.

"Jayy! I'm so sorry about what I told you. I regreted it every night since I told you that. I just didn't wanna lose you! You're my only brother, and I am so proud of you!" He said pulling away and tears started filling his eyes. I reached over and ruffled his black hair.

"It's okay kiddo. I forgive you. But, HOW THE FUCK DID YOU GET HERE!!?!?!?!?! What's your motive" I say, kinda freaking out. "This is really you, right? You're not really some scotiopathic murder that's here to kill me? Or a monkey in a tutu wearing a-" Damon cut me off by slapping me. Wow, for scotiopathic murder he sure hits hard.

"No, it's really me. Dahvie called me. Said that y'all were having a big reunion, and that you really missed me. So he invited me over and I got in my car and drove here."

"Wow. One sec." I say, running back into the living room and towards Dahvie.

"Woah bro, slow down you're gonna-" before he could finish I ran to him and jumped on him like a little kid.

"Dahhhhhhhhhhvvvvvvviiiieeee!!! I seriously love you!"

"Um, kay?" he said, giving me a really weird look so I got off of him.

"How did you get my brother's #?"

"Oh, easy. I looked it up in the phone book." He shrugged like, "No bid deal."

"Hey! You liar! I looked it up while you sat on your ass telling me to hurry up!" Molli says, reaching up and slapping him.

"I think this is something you two need to work out so thanks for calling me brother-BYE!" I yelled, slowly backing up until I was in the hallway that leads to my bedroom and dashing towards it.

"Well, that was.... Interesting...." I say to Damon when I walk back in. Well it necissarly wasn't to him, just kinda out loud.

"What was Jayy?" Damon says, sitting on my bed.

"Oh" I say shaking my head, "Nothing, don't worry about it."

"Okay."

"Why'd you come back?" I say, staring blanking at the wall.

"What?"

"I said, why'd you come back? You know, it's been two years, you could've came sooner."

"I know," He said. "But, I... I was scared."

"Of what?"

"I was scared that you've changed" he told me. " I was scared that you'd be different. And that you wouldn't rememeber me. I was scared that you wouldn't want me to be around, or tell me that I was useless and the worst brother ever and that I should die and go to hell and-"

I cut him off. "You really thought I would say those things" I looked over at him with concern mixed with surprise and disbelief. I'm his own brother for God's sake, I would never stop loving him, or forget about him.

"Yeah, I did. I'm really sorry." He says, tears forming in his eyes again.

"Oh come here, Dam" I say, walking over and giving him a hug. He put his head into my chest and started to cry.

"Sshh, shh, it's okay. I'm here now, and I will NEVER leave you like that again. I promise." And with that tears filled my eyes and I held him closer.