Broken Inside - Completed!!

Boyfriends suck, sluts fuck, and traumas yuck.

                                                            Dahvie's POV

My mom cried. And cried. And cried. Until I was seriously soaked from her tears. Where did Molli go? I saw her walk away with Jayy and Sam. She must've gone home. Yeah, she'll probably be sitting on the couch, missing me. She'll hug me and tell me she misses me, and that she's sorry my dad's dead. She'll just make me feel completely better. Yeah, I can't wait :). I take my mom home, then I drive back to our place. I get in, and the first thing I notice is Molli isn't there. Hmm, she must be in her room. I'll go up there and check. I hurry upstairs to Molli's room, to find all of her original stuff- GONE! Molli's not here either. I run and check out her window for her car- GONE! I start to cry, and then I notice a note on the desk.

"Dear Dahvie,

I'm sorry that it had to end this way. You're in too much trauma right now to deal with me. I mean, with us supposed to be having a child, and that you proposed, it's not worth it. I hope that you won't miss me too much. Just forget. Never come back, go live out your life with someone who deserves you. I know this is kind of sudden, but you obviously don't care about me. So, since you probably never wanted me in the first place, I'll just pack up, take my baby, and get out of your life.

Goodbye Dahvie,

I'll always love you"

"But you obviously don't care about me."

That line haunts me. How dare she say that. Of course I care about her! I'm fucking in love with her for God's sake!!! I run back to my room, slam the door, and fall onto the floor and start balling my eyes out. "How!?!?! How could I have treated her so disrespectfully!?!?!" I yelled out loud and rolled over onto my back. "I did love her! I did! I never meant for this to happen. I'm stupid! I'm a fucking stupid idiot who just lost the best thing to ever happen to him!" I just keep screaming. I clutched the engagement ring to my heart. "Why God why!?!?! First you take my dad, then you make the love of my life leave me, probably for good! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!?!?! Me and her were together for almost 4 fucking months!!! She's having my baby! This was the only girl I've ever wanted to be with, and you made her leave me! I just I just...." I start crying even more. "I just wish I could see her one more time. That would make me so happy. God, why did you take my dad!?!?! Why not ME!?!?! I'M NOTHING BUT A NO GOOD, IDIOTIC, PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A MAN!!! Molli deserves better. Where she got all that bullshit about me doing better I don't understand. I could never do better than Molli." I sigh and sit against my bed, pulling my knees to my chest. "Molli was the most decent girl I ever dated. I loved her. I loved the way she flipped her hair our of her face, I like the cute little way she giggled. I even liked it when she got shy and tried hiding her blushes. I loved it how she could just be herself, and do whatever everybody was to scared to do. She was the ultimate girl, more than I could've ever dreamed for." Tears spill onto my cheeks again. "If only I hadn't been so mean. I just wish I could go back in time, and change everything. My parents liked her, my sister liked her, Jayy and all his friends and family liked her. Sally and her sis and bro liked her. Even my friends liked her. She has good friends, and a few good family memebers, but most of her family hates her. I see now why she's always so sensitive, she just needs some love. Her family never supplied he with that. She's been looking for love all this time. Jeez, I must've made her feel like I loved her, but I guess now she's probably feeling like I used her. Or betrayed her. Or lied. God-" I say, and tilt my head up towards the sky "Can you please just let her somehow know I really do love her." And that's when it hit me. I need to find her. I have to go after her. No way am I gonna let her go. I love her too much, and if she really needs proof of that, well I'll fucking give it to her. I went to the bathroom and got a razor. I sigh, "Well Molli, here goes nothing baby girl." I sat on the toliet seat after I put the lid down, and ran the razor across my wrist. I watch the blood pour from my wrist, onto the floor. Jayy comes in just then.

"Dude!! What the fuck are you doing!?!?! And why!?!?!" Jayy looked horrifyed. He grabbed a bunch of shit an cleaned up my wrist, and boy, did it take a while. Then he started moping up the floor. "Well," he said "I'm still waiting to here your excuse for this!!!" Jayy sounded pissed, yet kind of shocked. I stared blankley in front of me.

"Molli left. And she took everything with her. Even my heart." I cover my face and start crying all over again. "If only I weren't so stupid, I never would've lost her." Jayy came over and hugged me.

It's okay bro. We'll go get her back. I just talked to her. I know where she's at." I look up and slap him across the face. "Bitch! What the fuck was that for!?!?" He sounded pissed... Again.

"YOU KNEW WHERE SHE IS AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!?!?!"

"I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH HER! SHE WAS WORRIED YOU'D DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS AND WANTED ME TO MAKE SURE IF YOU WERE OKAY! NOW IF YOU DON'T CALM THE FUCK DOWN RIGHT NOW, I'M GONNA GO AND NEVER TELL YOU WHERE SHE IS!!!" Jayy slapped me across the face. "Look at you man! You're a complete and utter mess! And you're not stupid! She doesn't even know about that time you got seduced by that one slut!! You need to tell her that though." He takes me over to the mirror and makes me look at myself. I gasp. My hair is a mess, all my mascara has run, and so has my scratch. "Now. Not only do you need to tell her you fucked a slut while you two were together-"

"But!" I cut him off. He shushed me.

"-And you need to tell her that you need her. Tell her how you really feel. And that being with her means the world to you. You want to keep the baby. Right?" I nod my head and Jayy continues."Then you need to tell her that, but not only tell her, but show her. Step up and start doing your jobs as a father. And if you really wanna marry her, bring her presents. She likes Tulips and Roses." I nod and go to fix my hair and makeup because I look like a dying clown. "No!" Jayy said, pulling me out of the bathroom. "You need to stay like this, she needs to see that you've been miserable without her." I nod my head and we go out for a few hours. I buy a teddy bear, balloons, a dozen roses and tulips, her favorite candy, and a diamond bracelet. God I hope this works. I sit down and write her a letter......