Seems Like Yesterday... (Keaton Stromberg) Book 2

Chapter Eleven- Hope

Skyler's POV

 Keaton... I'm not worthy of having him in my life. Nor Drew or Wes or Tyler. I just broke up with him, but I had no real reason. Except that these rumours aren't true. What was going through my mind? That I was stupid, worthless and I questioned my existence on this earth. Why? Because I thought Keaton believed these stupid magazines. He thought I would stoop that low. Maybe I did just throw my life away. But I wanted to protect him. Protect him from scandals being made up about his nobody girlfriend. So leaving him is the best way to protect him. I need to do this alone, let everyone hate on me and not Keaton. I've seen the hate towards him; it’s not as much as to me. But people have been telling him what a piece of scum I am and bullying him for ever taking interest in me.

 So in actual fact, I do have a reason for leaving Keaton. But it's not a very good one... I just want him to be happy, not to be hurt by anyone. Well, it seems I hurt him more than anyone could ever do. What kind of person does this make me? Am I a coward? All I'm doing is running away. I could have spoken to Keaton, sorted this out with no one's heart breaking. Instead, I went the route which is the most painful for both of us. Why? I don't know. Now I know I have made the wrong choice. Tomorrow I could have had Keaton back in my arms for just a few hours, he could make all these rumours and accusations go away. Just one kiss. That's all it would take...

After that call, I broke down, again. In front of everyone. This time I had people who tried to console me, and that was Peyton and Jade and all that lot. Jake just stood there staring. I couldn't cope with lessons. The rest of the day was spent in the infirmary; I said I felt like I was going to throw up, which was partially true. My whole stomach flipped over when I hung up on him, when I saw tears start to form at the corners of his eyes. I had hurt him so bad. I'd be surprised if he would want me back anymore. On top of that, I feel that he thinks that I am cheating. God Damn Skyler, you should have told him the truth. Told him they were lies, that you only want him, only love him. That's not how life works apparently, never simple.

Being the loving friend that she is, Peyton insists on taking me home and staying with me for another night. To be honest, I don't mind, she is better than nobody. And I need someone right now. Luckily tomorrow is my years' 'day off'. It's supposed to be like study leave for all of us, but no one ever studies anyway. And it's Peyton's party, which I hope I can enjoy. But right now I am being treated to an ice cream by Peyton. Alexis joined us. I liked her, she was friendly and we shared a similar taste in music and clothes. It was only about four in the afternoon, so the sun was still up and warm. We were sitting on the beach staring out in to the rolling waves. The rumble of the water relaxes me, releasing the tension in my muscles. I just want to be out there riding the waves. After the incident, I haven't been surfing, so I may have lost all skill I had unfortunately. 

"So Skyler, what are you wearing tomorrow?" Alexis questions, smiling as she licks a drip of ice cream off her hand. Shrugging, I get back to eating my own. There were so many flavours it is almost overwhelming; I always get the coffee flavoured ones where ever I go. 

"Do you have a dress or something?" Peyton pesters, looking at me worriedly. Smiling, I nod. Of course I have dresses and skirts; I just hardly ever wear them. At this moment in time, I am in the mood for a dress or something girly at least. 

"A few. What do you take me for Pey?" We all laugh a little. It's weird, for all these years, I had loathed this girl, now I feel like I am accepted and worthy to be her friend. She has accepted me, taken me in as one of her own. This is what having friends feels like? All warm and happy, feeling like there is always someone there to help you along the way. Someone to comfort you when you cry, someone to make you laugh when you're having a bad day. A person who makes you smile just because they say something nice about what you're wearing. That's what it feels like with these girls. Never did I expect I could feel such a thing. All my life, I thought everyone was out to get me, to bring me down and destroy me. But no, that's not the case at all. 

"Okay, guys," Alexis starts, a smirk on her lips. What has she got planned? "You see that ramp, I'll race you?" I laugh, knowing I will lose. Al is on the girls track team; she always wins gold. 

"That's not fair, you're like a cheetah!" I exclaim as Alexis stands, brushing the sand of her butt. She raised an eyebrow at me and Peyton.

"That's the whole point." She bit her lip, before suddenly speeding off down the beach laughing. Peyton grabbed my hand, pulling my up. Giving me a quick smile, Peyton dragged me behind her. I couldn't help but laugh and smile the biggest smile I have ever had. Today has been turned around. And it's all because of two people. Peyton and Alexis. To be honest, I owe them my life. If they had left me alone, I wouldn't be here tomorrow. But they have given me another reason to keep holding one; friendship. 

Alexis was waiting at the ramp, looking at her nails impatiently. I had to take a breather; I didn't realise how unfit I was! Peyton just had a light pink flush to her cheeks. Well, she is also an athlete at our school. All of a sudden, Alexis pulled me in to a tight hug. It startled me, but was comforting. And all I could do was cry in to her shoulder... I've never had friends like this... For once in my life I feel privileged and special. I love these girls.

~I don't know why but i really like this chapter. I feel like i really connected with it because it's true when they say that friends can help you get through tough times. I know for a fact its true. only this morning my friend helped me talk through something that was getting me down and upset.

I just feel some people take their friends for granted, and i dont know why but this chapter made me feel nostalgic. It reminds me of all those summers i spent having fun and laughing with my best friends. I was always happy around them and i hope i can get across through Skyler that friends are important.

Looking back on my life and how happy i used to be sometimes upsets me because its changed so much. People i used to hang out with all the time, i now hardly see. But in replacement of those people, i have found new friends. And i have different ways of having fun now because i have grown up and become someone else.

If i tell you my whole life story this will get so long and its not important, so im just going to say. Try and tell your friends how much they mean to you and if you dont think you have any, or dont think you have someone who cares, you do, there is always someone whether you can see it or not.

Okay i'm going to stop here now.

Stay positive, like i'm trying to, and keep on smiling even through the tough times. :) (That is Aleixs in the picture, wattpad decided to let me put pictures on now)

Natty Out~