forever and always//j.j.k

3

ai, today my girlfriend and i went to seoul

because we were visiting her grandmother.

as we drove onto the street

with all of the beautiful apartment complexes

i remembered

like i do every time we come down here

that you live in those apartments

and that every time i am in her grandmother's house

i am right across from you

i hope you're home.

as we walked in

my head kept turning

in case you saw me

or i saw you.

my girlfriend didn't say anything

and i think it's because she knows.

as she was about to go in

i said she could go without me

because i had dropped my phone somewhere

which was a lie

and she knew that

but she let me go anyways.

and when she closed the door

i looked through the peephole in your apartment door

and i saw you.

and i saw him.

and when i saw you

good god

you were just as stunning as you were four years ago.

your hair was to your hips, still.

your green eyes

were the most blinding things i had seen.

you were much skinnier

not saying you weren't before

because you were

but, oh, you were so skinny now

and it worried me a little

but i just concentrated on your smile instead.

you were in the kitchen

chopping up carrots

as he

the same boy from four years ago

my old friend

as he held your hand from behind

directing it

with a smile as big as yours.

and although i felt like kicking down the door

and claiming you as my own

i turned away

and opened the one across from you.