Existential Crisis ~ Phan

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*Yawn* Jeez... I have never slept that we'll before. I stretched my arms as much as I could and sat upright in my bed. I fumbled around sleepily on my bedside table looking for my glasses and slipped them on. As always, I can tell when my hair is a mess and now is when my instinct kicks in. Somehow,  I managed to get to the bathroom without bashing into walls and door frames. I looked in the mirror to notice my fringe was sticking up at all angles. I opened the small cabinet to see a lot of different bottles and packets of medicine and toothpaste tubes. I had finally found my small comb behind a bottle of medicine. I brushed through my fringe to make it look perfect and finished my morning routine, changing into some jeans and a random t-shirt.

After this, I decided to go to the kitchen and make my self a drink and a bowl of cereal (of course). To my surprise, Dan was still lying in the exact same position as yesterday and was wearing the same clothing. He was still in his black skinny jeans and his grey hoodie. Before continuing with my quest, I decided to sit in front of the most adorable person I had ever met. I moved his fringe out of his face with a shakey hand as he had made me severe worried at this point. His eyes were still closed as had been the night before. Feeling my heart sink, I gently lifted his arm and pulled back his sleeve to reveal his wrist. I rested two fingers upon his skin, using as little pressure as I could. What? There's no pulse.... It can't be!

I pulled his hood away from his chocolate brown hair and propped his head up slightly. I rested my fingers against his neck once more just under his jaw. His skin pale as snow and cold as ice. Still no pulse! Huh....no! I refuse to fave that he is gone! But then again, there is no the option.

He hasn't moved in days.

His skin pale and cold.

Clothes the same from when I found him.

....And ..... no .... pulse.

A/N - the sadness begins here and trigger warning for the next chapter. If you don't feel comfortable with suicidal thoughts and actions, please skip and move on.