When I was in high school, I was the biggest fucking slut on the planet. I hooked up with so many guys junior and senior year, I lost count. I am so unbelievably grateful that I never got any sort of STD or got pregnant. I only ever hooked up with guys for them to tell me how beautiful I was. My self esteem was so low that I needed guys to tell me how beautiful I was. I'm self confident enough now that I don't hook up so much anymore. I don't regret high school or anything I did there. What I regret is the fact that I pushed anyone who genuinely cared for me away.
My mom and I were so close up until sophomore year. I decided I was 'too cool' for her and I pushed her out of my life. When she had an affair, I vowed to never talk to her again. Her and my dad divorced and she asked me to stay with her, in the family environment. I told her to never talk to me again and I left with my dad. I regret that too.
I pushed my best friend Ashlynn away after she told me she was worried that I would get hurt or sick for everything I was doing. It wasn't like I got into alcohol or drugs. I'm not stupid; I've seen what problems it can cause. I let go of her beginning of junior year and she found new, better friends. I hung around with a lot of guys after we separated and I joined cheer. I'm almost positive I slept with every guy on varsity football and majority of the varsity basketball team.
I left every single person from my high school behind me the day we graduated. I don't keep in touch with a single one of them. I don't need to. They didn't have an impact on my life and I found new people I got along with. I found two great friends that understand me and don't make me feel bad about who I am. I meet lots of new people and some stick. I love making new friends, but I hate when they end up being fake and leaving you in the dust.
I just hope that's not happening again.
*****
Jack and I walk down the stairs and he leads me to his car. He opens the passenger door for me and I thank him as I slide inside. He smiles at me as he gets into the car.
"So what have you planned for this fine evening?" I ask him as he starts the car.
He looks behind him as he backs out of the spot. "I guess you'll just have to wait and see."
We drive for a few minutes and arrive at a pizza place. "So much for working out." I mumble so he couldn't hear.
"You don't need to work out." He said. So he did hear me.
I playfully glare at him. "If I didn't work out, I wouldn't have this gorgeous body." I make a gesture to show my curves.
He widens his eyes. "Work out all you'd like." He jokes. I laugh and we get out of the car.
The hostess at the front greets us. "Oh what a cute couple. Booth or table?"
Jack glances at me, but I pretend like I didn't hear it. "Booth please." She nods and grabs two menus. She guides us to a booth and we sit across from each other.
"She called us a couple Addie." He says after she leaves.
I don't look up from the menu. "Uh huh. I heard."
"You seem really laid back. Most girls aren't like that. "
"Obviously I'm not like most girls then." I say, finally looking at him.
He scratches the back of his neck. "No, you definitely aren't."
My phone dings and I pull it out of my pocket.
Ethan 🍆
hey, sorry i left you on read. i hadn't realized you texted me
i'm free if you want to get some food or something
sorry, i'm with jack
oh... well have fun then
we can hang out later this week
read 7:02pm
"Everything okay?" Jack asks.
I realize I'm being rude and put my phone away. "Yeah. I just had to let Ethan know I am busy."
"Glad you're with me then." Jack says, his smile making me not regret ditching Ethan.
*****
smh, jack is turning into mr. steal yo girl out here
ethan better claim his girl
damn. sorry for the short update lol
-bailey ;)
