Am I allowed to fall in love with him?

Chapter 7

SUNDAY

Des at 4AM

INTENSE NA PANAGINIP YUN A. Joke. Nagising ako kaninang bago mag-alas kwatro, but can’t seem to get back to sleep. So nag-isip-isip ako. And voila! NAALALA KO NA AFTER PONDERING FOR SOOOOOMETHING MINUTES.

So yun talaga nangyari? Sh*t na malupit. I know I could be confident and I did my own share of impulsiveness and recklessness. But what I initiated Friday night?! That was just overbearing, or overachieving (if I dared myself to be better).

NO WAY! I can just vividly imagine my friends’ grinning faces that night. I COULD JUST DIE ANY MOMENT SOON. Whyyyyyyy?!

I groaned loudly, not minding that it is dawn and I could wake someone up.

Please tell me they won’t give me that I-know-what-you-did-this-Friday look when we bump into each other later before or after mass. I could just imagine myself smacking the lights out of them, or keeping my mouth shut and turning beet red while controlling myself so as to not shriek at them.

I tried to get things of my mind by doing random stuffs and reading the novel again, unfortunately, di ako makaconcentrate (which rarely happens if I may add, kasi I’m always engrossed in reading that I tend to lose track of time or I end up fending sleep).

And with worrying about what could happen later, I dozed off.

Dwayne’s POV

ANG AGA KO NAGISING kahit medyo puyat. Inisip ko kasi ng inisip hanggang nakatulog na ako.

Buti nga nakatulog pa ako even if I thought of the past night’s intimate moments. I mean, seriously, anyone could have a hard time sleeping when you remembered what happened and could have happened in the same bed you’re lying on. Di ba?

I browsed through my phone. Kahapon pa ko kinukulit ng magpinsang Neil at Ella. The ever partners-in-crime. Hindi ko sila nireply-an e. I was too caught up in my thoughts to even bother sending them a text (which rarely happens).

Si Des nga natext mo e! Singit ng utak ko. Pft. Malamang! Involved siya e. Baka naman kung si Neil nakita nila katabi kong walang saplot, masmalala pa mangyari. =))

From: Neil (2:30 PM)

Masaya ka pre? :)

From: Neil (4:23)

Andyan pa si Cas noh? Kaya di umiimik yung isa diyan. Bwahaha!

From: Neil (5:01 PM)

Ang unggoy, mukha ngang masaya. =))

From: Ella (6:30 PM)

Paps, nagmamaktol na si insan! Kanina tawa pa ng tawa, ngayon hindi na. Ayaw mo daw mag-update e. =))

From Neil: (10:20 PM)

AH GANYAN, BRO AH! Lagot ka pag nakita kita. :(

Nakanampucha! Hahaha! Ngayon ko lang talaga inisa-isa ito a. Ang lala talaga nitong kaibigan ko o!

To: Neil (7:54 AM)

Pre! Ang drama ah. Ano ka, clingy? Haha! Sorry na. Wag ka na tampo.  If I know, makikichismis ka lang e. Yung radar mo pa naman. Tsk. Haha!

Balak ko pa sana magmuni-muni e, pero no use in delaying the inevitable, bumangon na ako, naghilamos at nagmumog tapos lumabas ng kwarto.

Kasabay ko lang lumabas ng kwarto yung bayaw ko, pag weekends dito sila minsan natutulog. He grinned at me. Something tells me we’d be having some bro talk soon. Nginitian ko nalang siya at pumunta na kami sa dining room.