pm // donny pangilinan

2.4

julianne

nagmukmuk ako sa kwarto ng ilang araw. wala akong ganang kumain, gumawa ng kung ano-ano, at kahit makipag-usap sa iba. gusto ko lang mapag-isa at mag-isip.

di ko na rin tinetext si donny, kahit sya di nya ako tinetext. i need a break, nasaktan ako eh. i sounded so oa pero yun eh, he didn't try proving to me na sya talaga si donny pangilinan. iyak lang ako ng iyak, ang hirap kasi eh. yung akala ko talaga, kasi nahuhulog na loob ko sa kanya eh.

i just lay on my bed when my phone goes off.

10:35 pm

donny: julianne i'm sorry

julianne: i guess it's better to talk this way

donny: we don't have to be like this always

i just look at his reply and i didn't mind it. i sit straight and looked at the glass door i have for my terrace. i see donny standing with his phone.

i'm shook for a moment, what is he doing here? how did he know my address? did he really know my address long time ago?

i opened the door for him, he entered my room and he always have this smile he have. "this is for you," he handed me a box of pizza and strawberries covered with chocolate. reminds me of hsm.

"what are you doing here?" i asked, "peace-offering yan tapos i want to hang-out with you." he grinned, "baka nakakalimutan mo, we're not okay." i raised my brow at him, "sorry na nga eh, di mo matatanggihan beatfriend mo." he hugs me tight and i couldn't breathe. "um, you can let go now." i said panting.

"i'm not letting you go." he hugs me tighter.

i'm shook. anu daw? i can't.

i feel much better about donny, we ate the pizza and the covered strawberries.

"okay na tayo?" approve na kami, our tandem is back. "pwede ba manligaw?" he said without hesitations, i spit the water i'm drinking. he laughs and said, "okay ka lang?" and continues to laugh.

"joke lang ikaw talaga," he chuckles, "yan ka eh, sanay na ako!" i rolled my eyes at him. "pero kung sakali?" he goes serious. i didn't answer directly.

"siguro," i drink a cup of water, he smiled. "hintayin mo ko ha," he said. "ewan ko sayo." i chuckled.

"how did you get in?" i asked, "i like gatecrashing someone's house." he winked, "akyat-bahay ganern?" pang-asar ko, "pwede, oo nga noh. pwede na akong magrecruit eh."

we talked a lot because we only talk sa text. and hindi ko gaanong na feel na sya si donny pangilinan the rising star, though i'm still distracted when i'm looking at him kasi nakatulala yung mukha nya and the way he speaks. donato antonio why are you doing this huhu

"i better get going, it's getting pretty late." he helps me to stand up, "thank you," i hugged him, "you're welcome," he said, "i'm sorry," he added breaking from our hug.

i watched him walk out from the door in my terrace and looked at me, we bid goodbyes and he left. i thought he was different in private messages and in personal, pero hindi eh. sya pa rin yung loko-lokong donny na nakilala ko at masaya akong nakilala ko sya.

di pa rin ako makapaniwala na si donny pangilinan ay nakakausap ko sa text ng ilang buwan tapos naging close kami.