Craving Ver

Chapter 5

********VERONICA'S P.O.V******

It's been 3 weeks since I joined my job. My life is improving day by day. My mom has started to move on in life. Now she smiles and talks to me. Although she is not fully ok she is improving. I know that she will never be like she was previously but still I feel happy that I would bring some happiness in her life. I am the only person she have in her life now and I know that only my happiness will make her happy.

I still can't believe dad did this to us. How could he? If he actually never loved mom then he should have given her a divorce just after his parents died. And me? Am I nothing to him? Doesn't he have any feelings for me? Then why did he hold my hand and taught me to walk? Why was he always there for me? Why did he wanted to be a find more than a dad? Why did he wanted me to share all my problems with him? Why did he protected me from the outside world?

There are so many questions in my mind that are yet to be answered. But the greatest question is that was the love and care that I saw in his eyes for us not genuine? Was it all a drama? A act? How can it be? I hate my dad. I hate him for leaving us alone. I hate him for betraying my mom. I hte him for bringing tears in my mom's eyes. I just hate him. But then why I believe that he can't do this to us? Why somewhere inside my heart I still love him?

He knows very well that mom love him a lot. She can't even imagine her life without him then why, why all this? Is must be something wired. There is something wrong I don't believe that he left us just because he never loved mom and love someone else.

I still remember, the first thing he would do in the morning is kiss her. She has always been the 1st person he wanted to see every morning. He never shout at her or quarrelled with her or yelled at her. And even if mom would want to or intend to he would lift her in a bridal style and kiss her to stop her. He always defended me when mom came to scold me. Why did he do all this to us if he really never bothered about us. For a few days before he left he actually acted wired and maintaineddistance with us but he clearly wrote in the letter that he never loved mom. And maybe that was a hint for me. The more I think about it the more i get confused.

Suddenly I was bought to reality by a knock in the door. And I see Dylan. " Is everything ok? " he askes

"Yes." I simply say.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"Because I have been standing here for more than 5 minutes but you didn't notice me."

"Yes. I was thinking about something."

"Ok." He comes up to me and I stand.

" R u free tonight?" he asks me softly.

"Yes."

"Actually I just wanted to hang out with you."

"Umm.... u mean a date?"

"Yes. Will u come?"

"Actually I have to stay home." I say. But my heart immediately regrets because of saying him that. Why did I reject him? I am such a dumb. His face suddenly show sadness in them.

"But why?" he asks desperately.

"Ok i will go." A smile spread in his face.

"I will come at 7 near your house to pick you up."

"That sounds perfect."

He moves to his table and sit there. We worked till five and he said me to go home and get ready.