Im Not Okay (mcr fan fic)

Chapter 6: Challenge.

WE ran through the empty hallway. What we just accomplished was great. I felt so happy and so much acceleration was running through me. It gave me energy to move on. The school bells rang and the hallway filled with students. I looked behind and way back in the hallway was a teacher, Cameron and Dylan. We were saved by the bell. Frank quickly stopped us. 

"What are you doing we need to get to the library before the halls clear," Ray panicked.

"Just a minuet, this jerk Wyatt's locker is near here and... just watch," Frank said. The dud walked towards his locker. He did his combination and then when  the door opened a bunch of pill bottles came flying out. Teachers who were inspecting the halls came to him as id he were a magnate. I gave Frank a quick high five and we all started running again. We made it into the Library moments before the hallway cleared out. The for of us scattered out throughout the library and try to act natural. Ray was in the ail next to mine. I looked over at him and he was looking through a really old looking book.  I tried to make it look like I was browsing. In the corner of my eye I saw Dylan walk in and took a quickly glance around the room. I looked at the shelf and when I looked back again he was gone. I leaned my back against the bookshelf and held my hand on my chest and breathed heavily. This was unbelievable. The consequences weren't entirely clear to me as they were back when we were just talking about it. Whatever I said before was nothing compare to now. It was all completely irrelevant. I panicked and continued to breath heavily. In the center of the Library were a few chairs. I walked over to them and sat down. Ray Mikey and Frank sat by me. 

Some students walked in. Each one had a partner. Oh no, I forget that some students practiced ballroom dance in here. My breathing became more rapid. What if word had already  spread and some of them figured out it was us. Mikey looked at me and the people around us started dancing as soon as the classic music stared to play. "Are you okay?" Mikey asked me.

I nodded "yeah, I'm okay."

I took another breath "I'm okay," I whispered. 

"I'm okay."

"I'm okay."

"I'm,

oh-,

kay."

 I was repeating that phrase for a while. I stopped when we were asked to move. 

"At the next bell we go back to class, and no one says a word about this, if anything happens lie your way out of it," I told everyone and they nodded. The rest of the day would continue to go on and we will all have a guilty conscious. We just have to make through until the day comes when everyone will forget. Or if we get expelled or suspended. Who knows

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Class is going by smoothly. But quietly, more quiet than usual. They know don't they, everyone knows. How could they not. But non of them are looking at me. Maybe they do know but they don't know its me. What do I do. How am I going to make it out. 

I might be overthinking this by a lot.  I REFUSE TO LET MY GUARD DOWN. I feel a punch in the nose coming I know it. This thought made me flinch. No one saw me. Good. Good. Goodity good. That's just swell. Wonderful. Splendid. I started rapidly tapping my pencil on the table. A girl who sat in front of my me looked at me confused. I looked down at my paper and covered it with my arm. The bell rings and I begin to sweat. 

How is class over it can't be over. Its only 10 minuets before school ends. And I completely forgot we have homeroom today so we can talk about the game. Stupid, stupid, stupid why did I forget. I quickly get up and leave the room hoping I can get to homeroom before anyone stopped me.

"Gerard Way!" someone shouted. I stopped in my tracks ad turned around. Cameron stomped in front of me. Play it casual, play a pathetic act.

"Heyy Cameron, how are you," I stuttered.

"You get dummer everyday dont you," he said.

"I mean- I fail every test," I told him.

"Yeah I didn't need to know that," he said.

"And no one needed to know about the girl that sneaked into the bathroom to give you a blowjob about a month ago," I muttered under my breath.

"What was that?'

"Nothing," I squeaked.

"Dont play smart with me, I know it was you and your little friends to crashed practice today," he told me.

"Well hey, at least it wasn't an actual game," I commented. If my future self were hear he would've told me to shut the fuck up. Cameron shoved me to the wall. 

"Smart comments like that is what getting you beaten to the pulp, you and your group of outcast emo nerds will not get your seaked out salvation, the beginning of hell starts tomorrow if you dont want to hunted like a deer you meet me in the hallway downstairs where the backboard is, invite your friends too, this is going to be a fight that they need to suffer too," he clearly stayed and let me go and walked away. 

Shit. 

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 In the front of the school Ray mikey and Frank were waiting infront of the fountain. They looked at me as I slowly walking to them.

"Hey Gee, are you okay," Ray asked me.

Am I okay? That question has been asked a lot through these few weeks. 

"No, I'm not oh-fucking -kay," I told all of them.

"What happened?"  they all asked me. This was the time. It was time for a serious bro moment.

"Frank you remember when you said we night get threatened, well, Cameron challenged me to a fight and he's expecting you guys to come as well, well more like he wants you too, I know he's not coming alone to this too, I don't know what is going to happen to us, our plan has back fired we should just surrender," I cant believe I said that. I don't want to give up, but I don't want to live a life in constant fear of getting whats coming to me just for the sake of revenge. No one said anything for a while until Mikey said "no, we're not giving up." We all looked at him in shock and confusion.

"This is how we're ending it, we're going out with a bang by doing something they don't expect us to do, fighting, we're going to take out those asses and take our message to the whole school, or die trying," those were big words coming out of a skinny boy with an innocent personality. 

"I agree with Mikey, we've gone this far and going out with a dang will a good way to finish it," Ray said.

"We can steal weapons from the gym and use it against them, I knew that part of my plan will come on handy," Frank added in excitement.

"If were cheating they might as well," Ray pointed out.

"Then we'll hit them as hard has out weak muscle-less arms can take," Frank continued. they all looked at me. 

"Come on Gee," Mikey spoke "like in Frank's plan we need you to lead the charge, like how you were the first to hit the dog," Mikey was referring the mascot. I wasn't sure. I thought for a moment. What do I want? Do I really want to give up and risk everything?

"Yes." I told them.