To feel nothing. To feel like your nothing. It's hard to say what you feel because we have this voice inside our heads telling us that no one will understand us. That we, ourselves, we're alone. Some of us drink or smoke to get rid of the pain because that's our only instinct that we've become so familiar with when we feel like we want the pain to go away. Drinking is being able to laugh so hard that when the pain finally comes out that laughter turns into sorrow and you realize that your crying because you can't take the misery anymore. You can't take what people say about you or what they truly think about you. You can't change the fact that you have to smoke so much that you can't feel anything so you just lay there in the cold floor waiting to be sober again because you know that when that happens the pains going to come back. You can't run from this, drink, or get high. The pain will always be there again, when your sober.
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Short StoryTo feel worthless. To BE worthless. I know. You just have to smile through the pain and trust me I know it's the hardest thing you could ever do but you have to do it. We all do cuz hun, that's just life.
