I jolted upright.
I woke up in a small apartment. The room is messy and a laptop was left on. The memory kicked in. This is MY apartment. I moved into another city for my work as a programmer in a game development company called 'Level up'. This month we're trying to make this new game which I was psyched working on. Speaking of which, I looked at the clock.
Crap, I'm late! I dressed up and went outside.
I stopped looking at the sky. I stopped trying to remember her beautiful pitch black eyes. I've stopped trying to remember everything. All those momories, along with the cowardly acts I've done. I tried to forget all of them with AI algorithms and project dues. And little did I notice how I succeded. Little did I realize how bitter I've become.
Before I headed for work, I went to a convenience store to buy something to eat. I feel like I'm forgetting something. Did I leave my USB again? As I tried to remember what I was forgetting, I accidentally remembered Alice and the way her eyes would sparkle under the sunlight. I cursed at myself, maybe it was too loud that the person who was in front of me might have heard it. But I realized I wasn't remembering it. She was really there.
Alice stood at the pedestrian road, waiting for the lights to turn green. She looks even more mature, but she still retained those beautiful eyes. The sunlight traces her long, black hair.
I rushed outside the convenient store. It was really her.
The lights turned green. She's heading towards me. She hasn't seen me yet. She's too busy on her phone. I argued with myself as she continues to step closer. Should I leave? Should I stay? Should I walk pass her like I didn't see her? Should I say.... should I tell her I'm sorry?
How is a simple sorry going to fix anything?
My internal argument stopped.
"Alice!"
A sixteen-wheeler is about to ram her flat. I was about to ran towards her when my legs locked. Not this shit again! My legs started run away from here. I pleaded for it to stay, but it didn't listen. I forced my legs to stay, to listen to me just for now. Then I gave in....
'Are you just going to give up-' hell no!
Calling her name, I ran towards her. She looked up from phone and noticed the truck, but it was too late.
I pushed her from the truck.
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Darkness.
That's it.
That's all I can see: Nothing.
A huge cluster of nothing.
I can't see my body, but I can feel it's there. Yet, the darkness makes me question things I'm supposed to know: like are my eyes open.
Or if I'm standing up or sitting down. Perhaps floating? no, that's impossible.
Where am I?
I no longer know what I'm doing here or how I got here or how long I stayed here. I tried to remember, but the more I strain my brain to remember, the more I seem to notice what I'm forgetting.
Who was I again?
I tried to remember... I think I remember...
Suddenly, I felt a strong grip around my body.
"NO!" A deep voice yelled from somewhere. "This time, you're going with me!"
You have to get out of there!
I am Skye Astute.
You have to see her again!
I have made a lot of mistakes in the past. I've ruined other people's lives, if not- ended them. I can't change that. That's why I have to live. To atone the mistakes I've done and fix what I can in the present.
Keep looking at the sky for me, okay?
I looked up and tried to reach out to whatever is above me. Drops of water fell onto my head. Is it raining?
It's time to wake up, sleepy head.... please
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Then I woke up.
