"You go first, please." He told me. I looked at him as my green eyes studied him.
"Are you sure?" I asked him. He nodded and sat back down on my bed, I sat adjacent from him. "It all started a millennia ago, at that time I was 16 almost 17 years old and had just graduated from the Commission of Counter Ghoul academy with flying colors." I said in an exaggerated tone. "I was assigned to small squad and given a 1/56 scorpion bikaku quinque. Although, I wasn't your typical investigator, I liked the ghouls, more specifically how they worked." My lips curled into a devilish smile. "The reason I even became an investigator, was because for years I had played with a ghoul, my best friend, was a ghoul. I found out when she killed my family. That was when my curiosity was piqued, despite her devouring their flesh, she was remorseful and cried. When she had spotted me she cried even harder and apologized, she had told me she'd been starving herself and lost control. She was covered in their blood, her kagune still out, a beautiful ukaku. It shone and sparkled like something extraterrestrial. I was so shocked, I couldn't think of what to do, but stare, her eyes, her kagune all intrigued me. Soon after that, she died as well, CCG investigators near by had done the deed and taken me in as an orphan and put me into the academy." His silvery eyes were trained on me as if he was in some sort of trance from my tragic tale.
"I worked day and night to learn all that I could, and eventually I met Dr.Kanou. He was a brilliant man indeed, but just as reckless." I growled in disgust of the man. "He and I were always together, learning more about the ghouls. One day, he came to me. He explained to me that he had an idea and had me approved to undergo it. He wanted to create half ghouls, a being with the kagune but able to consume human food, at least that's what he told me. I had been working with him for a long time so naturally I trusted and agreed to be the first.
"I remember lying on the table, thinking on what he was going to do, I remember falling asleep, then when I woke, a burning sensation in my left eye and my back. For a while, I could tolerate human food and consume it but that changed, obviously. When that started happening we began to experiment with it. God did I hate it, I was hungry and felt shitty. We tested my kagune and found out that I was a balanced rinkaku star type. Although it began to mutate from the doses of ghoul meat I consumed. All the while I was still working for the CCG and doing reports and trying to maintain my composure and routine. My friends and co-workers began to notice my decline in socialization, my mood, appearance and more. I began to spiral into a horrible depression and anxious state. In the end I lost control of my kakuja kagune. When my friends were faced to battle me they couldn't bring themselves to hurt me and I went on the run and Kanou disappeared. I killed seven officers on that day. I despise myself because of my weakness." I finished, my green eyes staring at him in a wistful way. His eyes were dull and sad, as if he pitied me, almost remorseful, like he wanted to protect me. He hugged me again and I hugged him back. I really liked his hug, it was warm and comforting and I wanted to fall back to sleep. I hated to admit it but I felt at home with him, almost like I was falling in love with him. His hand stroked my hair. "You know if I didn't know any better, I'd say you've fallen for me Kaneki." I said quietly into his chest as a joke.
"Maybe I have." He replied. I pulled away and stared at him, his face was flushed slightly. My face heated up, how do I react, I don't understand how this shit works. I did the only thing I could think of, I kissed him. I half expected him to shove me away in disgust but he didn't, he froze up. I pulled away quickly, instantly regretting my decision. I have known him for about two days and I have kissed him, told my life story and oh my god.
"I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry!" I screamed holding my arms up in defense out of habit. He pushed my arms out of the way and kissed me. It was soft and sweet, almost like cotton candy. His grey eyes were closed, hiding behind his eyelids, my body melted like butter on a hot day into his kiss. My hands went into his hair and tangled themselves into it, his hands grabbed my waists and face, being in me even closer to him. His skin and hair was soft to the touch. I moaned a little against his lips, he held me tighter. He pulled away and looked at me.
