A guy like him.

Part 1

If I ever become a girl like Hannah baker, I would put you as my last tape, why? Because you hurt me the most. It's 2017 and I still wonder why did you and me have to start speaking? Why did all of a sudden WE have to start a conversation and make it far from friends but close to something else. Why did we have to FaceTime and why did you make me fall for you just to make me feel like shit right after we stopped talking? I don't know why we even became friends in the first place, but you hurt me when you lied to me about breaking up with your girlfriend when you were still with her and wanted something with me. I forgave you and we kept talking until one day you asked me out and made me feel like shit after that. I tried being there, I tried speaking to you and I tried doing anything for you to consider that offer again, but you didn't you just kept on with your life went back out with your girl and made me feel like if I was just a two minute toy. Can I ask you if you even cared a little bit about what I felt? Or if you even cared that you were messing with me? Or if you even cared when your girl went all boy protective on me?  Did it ever occur to you that any of it hurt me? When I tried so much for nothing and when I cried for no reason and when I started liking guys like you just because you were sweet and cute to me. I melted for you. You were one of the most important part of my life and it all just went away. You should've fought for us if you really wanted us to work but you didn't, you went on and kept going on how petty I was and then stopped speaking to me. Maybe it was all for the best, maybe god was telling me that you're not the one for me, but it still hurts how you left me in the middle of nothing. But thanks, thank you for making me feel like shit.