The Beat Of Our Hearts

Chapter 14: Words To Kill

"Kaitlyn...what happened?" I hear Harry say as I stare at the text.

What the fuck?! I think to myself, thinking of all the possible people that could have sent it.

"Hmm? Oh nothing, Mel just texted me something about her parents," I say, lying through my teeth.

I turn my phone of and grab Harry hand, settling back into his chest for the remainder of the movie.

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"How did you get my number," I demand as I walk into homeroom the next day, slamming my hand on Kira's desk. It had to be Kira. I could see someone finding me and Harry and taking a picture, anyone could do that, anyone could call me fat, but the person who sent that text called me Kat, and that could only be a handful of people I know.

"What are you talking about?" Kira replies with a laugh.

"How did you get my number," I say, ignoring her because I know she did it.

"I met your hot boyfriend Harry the other night. You didn't really think you were good enough to be with him, did you?"

"Bicth," I half say half whisper, staring at her as rage forms inside me.

"Slut." She replies, causing me to strom to my desk angrily as her and her friends laugh.

BRINNNNNGGGG

I scowl as I turn on my phone and look at the new text message.

Freak. It's a wonder what Harry sees in you. Wouldn't want the paps to find out about you two eh? Then I guess you won't be joining the running club this year fatty! I will be the star on that team. not you. Got it? Wouldn't want to see your new boo hurt would you. Be a good girl and play along, ok Kat?

~K

I wrap my arm around my stomache as I close my phone and grab my bag. My mind fogs as I stand up, seeing my classmates all turning to stare at me, laughing.

I run out of the class passing my teacher on the way, as he yells at me to get back to class.

I push open the door to girls washroom, tears brimming my eyes as I fall to the floor. Resting my hand on my forehead I smack my face, forcing myself not to cry.

I rush into a stall as the tears leave my eyes, just leaving my stomache with a sickening feeling.

Shoving my finger down my throat, I practically throw myself into the toilet, forcing myself to throw up.

Collacting my things, I step out of the stall and clean myself up at the sink. I stay in the washroom until second period, trying to compose myself for the rest of the day ahead.

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The texts continue to come throughout the day, but I decide to ignore them. On the drive home, no one knew what happened and I intended to keep it that way.

At home I sat in the basement watching Netflix, Mel was at her grandparents, settling something about her parents house while Aurie was at soccer tryouts for our school team.

So I was alone. the perfect time to check all the texts.

Opening my phone, 3 new messages pop up.

Can't run from the truth Kat. Don't forget just how worthless you are. Harry would be better off with someon better, like me. So why don't you just do us all a favor and go kill yourself!

~K

Did you forget hun? He's gone and he's not coming back.

~K

Hey Katlyn, want to go for a date this weekedn?

~Harry

I smile at the last one and replie with a yes.

I can't explain what I feel when I read the others. I don't cry. I can't cry. I don't have the same gut wrenching sorrow in my stomache that I felt earlier.

I just feel...well I guess the same as always. The same thing I've felt since freshman year. Extreme saddness. It's like my heart is just extremely heavy and I can't get rid of it.

Picking up the phone, I call Harry.

"Hey," he says, his voice coming through with a bit of static over the phone.

"Hey, sorry I called I just...I don't know I guess I just wanted to hear your voice."

"Is everything alright?"

"Ya, ya it's fine, I have to go now, bye Harry."

"uh.....Bye Kaitlyn?'

I hang up and head up to my room.

I quickly pull the small box off my shelf and pull the blade out. I quickly slide the rough metal over my hips 10 times.

Then 20.

Then 50.

I watch as the blood flows over my thigh, smiling.

No crying this time. No break downs. Just relief.

~A/N~

Hey guys! Ok I have a bit of a problem with not uploading for a while but then uploading two days in a row xD. BUUUTTTTT today was the closing of the olypmpics and I don't know why but I just felt like uploading. And Canada won Gold!!!!!!!! I'm from Canad if you guys didn't know so I woke up pretty early to watch the game xD. Anyways thankyou again for reading and please if you ever like a certain chapter I would REALY appreciate some votes or comments? Thanks guys!

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