Forbidden Desire (Teacher/Student)

Chapter Seven: Acceptance

Guilty, naughty, excited, careless, aroused and confused. I felt all these things as I walked home. My mind played back the events that happened a few moments ago over and over again.

There was no doubting the fact that I had feelings for Mr. Alexander now. That scene that happened in the classroom proved otherwise. I willingly kissed him and I sure as hell enjoyed it. But why? It's wrong. But it felt so right. How could something so wrong feel so right? This whole situation confused me. I needed to take my mind off of it.

When I got home, I talked to my mom for a little bit and went to my room to start on my homework. I unzipped my book bag and searched for my math, economics, science, and psychology homework assignments. I completed them within a 2 hour period. Then the thoughts came back.

I tried to make them go away, but they wouldn't. I couldn't help but think about how Mr. Alexander looked at me today. How he talked to me. How he touched me. I hugged my stomach as the butterflies danced around in it.

A smile spread across my face. It was soon taken away by guilt. That shouldn't have happened. It was wrong. It could have gotten both of us in a lot of trouble if we were caught. Why were we so careless? Why did we break the rules? I'm a smart girl. I should know better. Why did I let it happen?

Maybe because it was...exciting. Absolutely thrilling. Just knowing that an older man wanted me so badly. Not that I'm a whore or anything. Just knowing that I had the power to make an older man want me was thrilling. I felt so naughty.

A thought suddenly hit me. What the hell was I going to say to him tomorrow? 'Hey, I enjoyed making out with you yesterday. Can we do it again?' No! I couldn't say that, even though I kind of wanted to. I was so confused...

I laid down in my bed and closed my eyes. I needed to think about this now. I needed to make a decision and stick with it. I hated feeling unsure about situations. I'm not used to that. I always know the answer to situations. But not this time. I've never felt so unsure about anything in my life. Should I go for it, or not?

Let's think about the positives. He's absolutely gorgeous, friendly, funny, knows how to keep a conversation going, a good, no, a great kisser and I can see that he has strong feelings for me.

Now the negatives. He's nearly twice my age and he's my teacher and dating him could get us in a lot of trouble, if we're caught. The words 'if we're caught' played over and over again in my head.

There were more positives than negatives and one of the negatives wasn't a sure thing because it would only qualify as a negative if we got caught. All in all, there more positives than negatives. Maybe it could work out after all.

Excitement took over my body again as I reminisced the memories from earlier. I touched my lips and smiled. The butterflies fluttered in my stomach again. I giggled.

I started feeling aroused as I thought about the way he kissed me. His lips were so warm and soft. He was so gentle and loving with me. He made me feel amazing. I...wanted more. I finally admitted it to myself. I wanted him and I was going to have him.

"Tomorrow," I said to myself. "I'll tell him tomorrow."

Hello everyone!! Thanks for reading. I know this chapter isn't very long. It's just her thoughts. I hope you liked it. The next chapter will be better. ;) please vote and share. ~Nijah~