Chapter Eighteen: Friends Again

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Our lips moved together in sync as his hands explored my body. I wrapped my arms around his neck to bring us closer. He lifted me up and sat me on the kitchen counter.

I moaned as his lips moved from mine to my neck. He placed sweet, gentle kisses down to my collar bone. His tongue moved hungrily across my neck as his hands went up my shirt and caressed my breasts.

I loved this. I missed this. It was just like the old times.

"I love you, Jade."

My eyes shot open. I became horrified as I saw Kyle and quickly pushed him away.

"What's wrong? I thought you were into it?" He asked.

"I'll be back," I said as I started heading for the bathroom.

I walked in and closed the door. I took a deep breath and walked over and looked into the mirror.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I whispered to my reflection.

I waited for my reflection to give me an answer, but I got no response. I sighed heavily and put down the toilet seat and sat on it.

I don't hate you, Ms. James, I just hate that I'm still in love with you.

Jake's words played over and over again in my head. Ever since he said that to me, I haven't been able to stop thinking about him. About us. About the good times we had. About how much I still love him.

I even forgot that I was making out with Kyle. My mind told me that it was Jake who was touching me, because, in reality, that's who I wanted it to be. I missed Jake's touch.

But none of this matter anyway. I'm in a relationship with Kyle now and I'm happy. He's a great guy and I have no reason to leave him and go back to Jake. He doesn't deserve that. He's been nothing but good to me these last two months.

But here I am letting my body and mind pretend that it's Jake touching me, when it's Kyle. I sighed heavily. I'm an awful girlfriend.

I love you, Jade.

Kyle's words came into my head. I honestly didn't know how to feel about that. I mean, I like him a lot, but I don't love him. I'm nowhere close to loving him. We've only been dating for two months. It's too soon for me.

Plus I'm still in love with Jake. I thought that I wasn't, but when he said that stuff to me last week, it brought back my feelings.

He's still in love with me, but I don't understand how. I've been nothing but awful to him. I used Kyle to make him jealous, started dating Kyle, kissed Kyle in front of his face, and acted so rudely towards him. How could he still love me after that?

He can't help it. That has to be why. That's why he said that he hates that he's still in love with me. It's because he doesn't want to be anymore, but he still is. I put my hands over my face and signed deeply into them.

"I'm so stupid," I whispered.

I left a truly great man behind, breaking his heart in the process. He did so many sweet things for me and all I've done is break his heart.

I looked down at my necklace. I picked at it as I thought about the day that I got it. It was the day after Christmas. I had went to Jake's house. He made us dinner and after that, he gave me this beautiful necklace. Then, we watched a movie and then.....the best moment of my life happened.

I still remember everything. The way we kissed, the way he touched me, the way our bodies screamed for each other, the look in his eyes, the ecstasy his body brought mine.

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