The Unforgiving Love

The New Guy, or Old..

As I realize who he is I gather all my papers without bothering to put them back in my binder properly. I make a neat stack of mixed papers, shoving them into my binder and my binder into my book bag. When I stand up I can feel him staring at me. But I do my best to ignore the feeling that runs through me and the heat that is rising in my cheeks. I am too pissed at him to even spare him a glance.

I feel him moving toward me so I look up to see him not even a foot away from me with his hand stretched towards me. I glare at him out of anger and see his expression turn from soft to hurt in a split second. It hurt to know that I was the reason for his hurting, then reality some how hit me and I found myself even more angry at him and not caring that I hurt him.

'You know you don't want to hurt him. You know what you really want, it's right there all you have to do is make the move.' That little annoying bitch of a concious speaking it's wisedom. But I ignore it. Like I always do, I took the hard way out because I did what I though was right for my heart. He'd had his chance and he had ruined it.

Ignoring the guys hand I turned, walking to the left of me and through the double doors leading to the commons. I walked up the side stairs off to the side of the gym doors, the stairs being placed in a corner of the commons area, to the upstairs English pod. Madison should be there by now considering that the other people on her bus are already downstairs in the commons. I find Madison and the rest of the gang (gang-group of very close friends, not a actual gang) in Mr. Hanna's room.

As I walk into the class room a few heads turn to look at me. I ignore it.  And to tell the truth I am used to it by now. I will forever be known as the girl with problems and I don't care. Im still popular, I mean whats the point in caring about it anyways? I'll be gone from this hell hole in less than three months.

I say hey to the guys and turn to Madiosn and Ashley, telling them about the conversation I had with my mom. We all are excited about me spending the night and plan out what we are going to do for the next few minutes.

The bell rings about five minutes later and I walk out of Mr.Hanna's class with Ashley, leaving Madison behind because she has that class. This is where the trouble starts, I think to myself, but feeling safe with Ashley at my side.

Every day after the bell rings I run into those stupid kids and they say something to me about my past. Why the hell cant you just leave it IN THE PAST?  I mean seriously what did I ever do to you?  I walk past the group and to my surprise nothing happens. I get past them and go to my first class, Geometry with Mrs. Hestin. She seems like a nice person and is good at her job.

I sit down in the seat in the second row from the back of the classroom, farthest away from her, Ash sitting to my right, and start doodling in my notebook. Mrs. Hestin starts the lesson as soon as the morning announcements are over. I'm barely paying attention to the lesson because I am doodling. But as I look up for a moment, something hits me in the back of the head. I turn around slowly so that maybe my teacher might not see me. I barely turn and look on the floor to notice a note on the ground. I look back to the front of the class and slide the paper under my desk with my foot. I look down at my note book and pretend to write something down as Mrs. Hestin looks at me.  She continues with the lesson and I reach down to pick the note up.

As I open the note I realize that it has my name on it. But why would a note have my name on it?  As I open it I realize that it was about me and maybe the person hadn't meant for me to read it. There was so much going on in the letter.  Who ever wrote it seems to be obsessing over me... but who?  No one in this high school likes me.  Why would someone do this?  Was it and joke..?  Yes that had to be it!
I fold the note up and put it in the front of my Geometry binder. What a joke. People are so ignorant. I mean does it look like I need more stress?  Hell no. I'm done with people at this school.

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"BEEEEEPPPPPP"  FINALLY.  The bell for second lunch finally rings and I walk out of my English class heading for the stair well to wait on my friends. Luckly enough we all had the same lunch together. As I head down the stairs I notice they are already at the bottom so I start taking the note out of the front of my binder. I hand it to Madison saying "read this I will be back after I go pay for my food." But just as I hand the note to her I notice everyone else seems distracted because they have their backs to me. Seems they were talking to someone, but who?  As I stand in line I get out my wallet,  having completely forgotten about the note I found this morning, like I knew I would.  I get out my five and hand it to the lady at the register.

As I got out the money I had noticed the note and my mind started reeling like it had this morning trying to figure out who the hell had wrote it and wondering what it said.  I heard the lady say "your change will be two dollars even,"  as she handed me my money back I could barely get out and thank you before leaving.

I sat down at the table with Madison and everyone else. To my left was Chase and to my right was Ashley, in front me was Madison, to the left of her Andrew, and the right Kenith. This was our normal seat, the one at the back of the cafateria so that no one would bother us.

"Hey,  I read the note," Madison says as I sit down in front of her.

"What did you think? It's stupid isn't it?  I mean, seriously people need to grow up and find someone else's brain to mess with," I say as I open the lid to my salad plate. I look up at her before I put the first bite in my mouth and I notice that she was staring at me. "What did I say?"

"Nothing Izzy,  it is just that I'm not used to this side of you," she looks down at her food and pushes it away.  Pulling out a book, she opened it up and ignored everyone else. When I realized she'd been drawn completely into the land of the teen fiction book she was currently reading, I knew there was no point in trying to continue the conversation. I soon turned back to the rest of my friends and got ingrossed in their conversation, forgeting about the notes.

By the end of lunch I realized that someone else had came and sat at the end of our table. He keep quite and said nothing. Truth be told, he was probably hoping I wouldn't notice him. That bastwrd deserved to rot in hell for what he put me through. And I was already planing to get him back for it.

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Ok guys so here it is, the next chapter, 1354 words!!
So who thinks they knew who the guy in the chapter is?
What is he or was he to Izzy?
What did he do to her that made her hate him so much?
Oh yea and I almost forgot about the note she found in her shoe.
What does it say, and who wrote it to her?
Sorry to leave it at a cliffhnger...
Find out in the next chapter!!
Till next time,
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Byeeeee!!!
~Chy~