After My Story

Her

The light in her eyes were gone, her cold lifeless body lay still. I let go of her hand, my heart dropped. I began to question all the things I had done these past 5 years. Never once had I told her I loved her.

Tears were flowing down my cheeks, uncontrollable sobs coming out of my mouth. Nurses come into the room and take everyone except me out of the room. I sit down and I was thinking of her existence.

She was amazing her eyes were a bright baby blue she would be so kind to all the people around no matter who it was. I missed her so much.

I remember telling her that we were going to be happy and promised her she was going to live. I shouldn't have put so much hope into her knowing this day was going to happen soon.

I look at the toy bear on the floor. That one that I had won for her one year at a festival. I stand from the bed and pick it up. Memories rush into my head I sit back down hug the small plush toy and cry.

I wish she was here maybe then we could both be happy I could tell her that I loved her and be the best person I could be for her.

I leave the room, bear in my hand. I pass her old family and walk out of the hospital. Tears are still going down my face, people staring at me and giving me glares.

I arrive at my apartment, eyes were red from crying. I lay down in my bed and just start to hug the bear more than I already was I can still smell her vanilla scent on it and I start to cry and make it seem like it's her like she was still here. I stand leave the bear on my bed and drive over to the store where I can buy a some drinks.

As soon as I get home I take out all the drinks and start drinking all of it. When I finally get to the last beer I wanted to throw up. It's been years since I had this much alcohol, I had stopped binge drinking for her. I tried to make myself better just for her. But now I know that my attempts are useless since she is gone everything I did for her was a mistake.

I remember walk into her old house and the everything went black.