Im feeling less improtant. Even though i know how important i am. I feel like everyone is giving up on me. I feel like i cant talk to anyone anymore. I mean even i manage to make my boyfriend upset. And my family.... my family. I hurt them. I hurt them so much, i dint even mean to.
Right now im sitting here on the bathroom floor blasting music, typing. After hurting myself. "Sometimes there comes a time when hurting yourself just doesnt hurt anymore." I guess i came up with that when it just didnt hurt anymore. Ive done it so often that it doesnt hurt. Is that how broken i am?
Im texting my boyfriend, somehow i upset him. Was it because i was being self centered again? Saying how he wasnt trying to come and see me, teust me he tries his best. But latly it just seams like hes been failing to even try. And i feel like im making this 8 month relationship fail. He keeps sayinf he wont leave me. But we are young and hes going to collage. Next thing you know hes with a collage girl. Pritter, stronger, less annoying, comes off like she appresiates him. rust me i apresiate him, i love him. But i am going through so much shit with my family, and freinds, and i think i just drag him into drama. I know i know, worst girlfriend ever.
I actually feel like i bring all my friends into my drama. Ig thats what i do. drag everyone in. And now i have to go to bed knowing my boyfriend is mad at me, and i might not be able to work this out.
From drama queen herself,
Mic
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There Comes a Time
RandomJust shit that goes on in my life. And i just need to get it out. And frankly, I don't care if anyone judges or thinks im being dramatic. It is what it is. So this is gonna be a journal thing. I'm gonna write whats going on. And im also gonna put...
