She's silent

Chapter Two

Pea's POV:

I hear chimes ringing, and groan as I hear the alarm clock chime some more. I hit snooze and sink deeper into my duvet. I am not a morning person at all and didn't fall asleep until 4.23am this morning. Believe me, I spent most of my time painting my sea shells, then lay here watching the time pass by very slowly. Once again I am disturbed by the chimes and decide to give into them. I'm awake now and may as well get up.

I look at my pictures on the wall, and memories dance around me of times lost, it's like I can still hear, smell and taste them again. I finally snap out it and decide to take a shower, washing my hair with my favourite raspberry shampoo and conditioner. I dry myself off and apply some moisturiser to my skin. It takes me half hour to blow dry my hair and as I look at the clock I realise I have 15 minutes before I need to leave the house. I pull on some tight skinny jeans, and a simple navy t-shirt, a black cardigan, some ankle boots. I throw my iPhone into my backpack, along with some books. I apply some black mascara, and a pink lip balm for moisture on my lips. Mmm strawberry. Then I flip my hair, so it's got volume. I pick up a pear, and munch it as I walk to my bike.

I love riding my bike. It's one of the only times I feel free and can really think. It's weird looking around this town. It hasn't changed one bit but I have. You see, I grew up here through my childhood, but circumstance had me move for nearly two years. I didn't really want to come back, but my aunt lives here, and my older brother thinks I will go back to being normal.

Once I get to school, I chain my bike to the bike rack, and walk towards the entrance. I stop and for a minute I listen to my brain screaming at me all the insecurities that lay embedded in me. For a moment I feel exposed and feel as though I'm going to suffocate. I'm then brought out of my thoughts when I hear a group of girls
giggling like a pack of hyenas. Typical cliché cheerleaders by the looks of things picking on someone.. Realisation dawns on me then as I become aware that the target of ridicule is my previous best friend Sasha Leroy. Although she is being taunted by these girls, Sasha seems as though she couldn't care less.. good for her I guess.

Once I see that she's okay, I clock that I have five minute until first bell, I quickly rush to find main office, to give them my note from the doctor and to pick up my schedule. My files are confidential, so the secretary seems curious as I hand her my note. She informs me with a fake smile that she will 'pass on' the doctors note and suggests I hurry to first class.

I take my seat in any random place as I'm first to arrive, I smile politely at my teacher, Mrs Adams and pull out my notepad, while I'm waiting I get lost in thought and aimlessly doodle pictures. I feel a presence beside me but decide not to acknowledge it, after all my goal is to be as invisible as possible. Sure it may seem rude and mean to start with but he or she will grow bored and will give up trying and I'll just be that kid they sit next too. Simple.

As I'm doodling I can't help but feel eyes keep looking at me. I tell myself I'm being paranoid and need to calm down. I've only been in class five minutes and can feel myself getting restless already. It's then that the teacher announces that we will be partnered up.. Partner work seriously? How am I meant to get a good grade if I work with someone else?

Before I know it I get lost in possible scenarios in my mind of how horrible this could be and can feel the bile rising in my throat. I then hear a deep sexy voice whisper 'Hey Bambi"

My attention quickly fixes on the guy sat next to me. Holy Guacamole! Melted chocolate brown eyes meet mine, his thick eyebrows scrunched up waiting for a response. His cheek bones look like they had been chizzled by the great Micheal Angelo himself! Every inch of this guy looked heavenly.

His lips moved, and it sounded like he was introducing himself. If I was anybody else, I would be loving this situation, being paired with the hottest guy I've ever laid eyes on. But I'm not happy. I'm me. And sudden a wave of frustration and sadness erupts in my chest. And I need to get away. I don't want to draw attention to myself but I can't stay.

Quickly I write down on a piece of paper to the teacher that I'm feeling sick and need the toilet. I get a few looks as I leave but ignore them. Hastily I head for the bathroom, however on my way I crash into a hard body..
"Woah there! Where's the fire?'
Tanned hands clutch my forearms balancing me. Another handsome stranger eyes me like I'm some sweet candy on a shelf. This guy seems to notice my distress, takes his hands off me, then tried to calm me down by offering to help me. I give him a small smile and shake my head. He flashes me a charming toothy smile and walks away but not before telling me too take care and that he'd see me around.

Just great. Well my mission of being invisible has failed twice today and two different guys have eyed me like a worm on a hook.

I walk to the bathroom and splash my face with cold water. I pull my phone from my pocket and see that my older brother has messaged me.

Cieran: Hey sis, how's school so far? X

Pea: It's fine. X

Cieran: Good. Have you seen any of your old friends yet? X

Pea: Nope. X

Cieran: Oh. Well I hope you do. It'd be good for you. Do you need a ride home? X

Pea: No it's okay. I'll ride my bike back. X

This is how things were between me and Cieran. He wanted to reconnect with me and I pushed him away. You might be thinking why? Well, if you knew what I did, and saw what I did you'd probably do the same. Obviously now he's trying to make it up to me and make things okay. But I don't think anything will ever be okay again.

Once again I am pulled from my thoughts as I hear the next bell ring indicating the next period is about to begin. Let's hope I have better luck in English.