Only Alpha's (ON HOLD)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12: Unedited

Deborah Dyson's POV:

"Oh, crap, I've got to reach home soon. Mother is going to scold me." I said to myself, looking at my watch.

I ran past the rows of houses, not bothering to be polite to people if I crashed into them.

In a normal circumstance, I'll avoid crashing into any of them. But today, many things happenned.

As I ran, I can't help it but to tear up as I let my thoughts go astray.

School used to be and escape from my hell home. However, now, to be honest, I’ve never wanted more than to just kill myself.

I’ve never really let my thought run into this direction. I’ve never really wanted to kill myself. I’ve never wanted the bullies and the bitch at home to have the satisfaction, and the achievement of bullying me, causing me to commit suicide.

Call me stupid but right now, I don’t care about my ego.

Yes, I do admit that sometimes, I would try to kill myself, but I’ve never succeeded, and I’ll try not to.

My tears started to drop rapidly.

For the past few days, I’ve been so busy and distracted by the bullies, that I didn’t have time to reflect or my ‘alone time’. 

Not even when I’m injured because of my mum, I’ll still have something else to worry about.

As I was about to reach my house, I was just in time to see Mother’s car leaving the garage and going towards the main road.

I sighed in relieve, but it also meant that I had to do more work.

Uh oh, I thought to myself for the 100th time. If I don’t do my work well enough for mother to be satisfied, I’ll get killed…

Well, my inner voice said, at least you’ll escape, for now…

Once I opened the front door, I immediately went to clean myself up, so that I won’t look like a wreck.

After cleaning myself up, I went to prepare a bit of dinner for myself before Mother came home.

I went to the kitchen to make myself a bowl of Campbell Chicken soup I bought from the convenient store near by and also a piece of bread that I bought there too.

As I was eating, my thoughts went back to Xander… NO! I told myself in my head. STOP thinking about that guy! He doesn't even like you! He’s Mindy’s boyfriend! I reminded myself for that 100th time.

Just when I said reprimanded myself, my wolf whimpered in my head, having the thought of Mindy and my Xander going on a date, lovey dovey and all.

I shook my head and clear my mind, blocking my wolf out of my mind, not wanting anything to sadden me even more.

I went to clear and bowl quickly, try my best to not leave any traces of food behind because if Mother finds out, I’ll be in deep trouble.

After cleaning the house till it’s sparkling clean, I went to my bed and try to sleep. I usually hate sleeping, but I really need one right now.

I sighed in defeat, wondering if I could ever get out of this lifestyle.