Caged

Chapter 11 put your pride aside

Diggy pov

Diggy - "what now nigga!!!"

Damn khalil didn't understand the shit that was going on through my head and hear he go adding more problems and shit.

More shit on my plate that I couldn't handle right now...

Khalil- "we'll you know that girl I was just talking bout you know the one with all the tattoos"?

Diggy- "khalil get to the point

Khalil- we'll that fine wine is looking for yo girl Ashley. She got poster hanging on trees, bushes, light poles & shit at 4 o'clock in the morning. So you know it's something serious between them two niggas, soo what you wanna do? "

Diggy - "damn I don't need this shit right now!! khalil just take em down and don't let her see you.. I gotta take care a lil problem.. I'll call you later."

Khalil - "aight stay strong my brother...."

I just knew this nigga was give me the air pump with his dumb ass , I quickly hung up the phone and ran into this small gas station.

It was about 5 o'clock in the morning...

There was this lady clerk her name was Megan. She had the most beautiful eyes... It felt weird that she caught my attention so quick , with all the things that I have going on...

Diggy-" umm do y'all have pregnancy test?

**She leans really close**

Megan -"of course we do."

**she gives me on of those sexual smiles then lick her lips slowly...*

Diggy-" we'll can I have one ?"

Megan -" first, you gotta kiss me ..."

I bit my lip and look up at her, I didn't mind kissing her at all in fact I will do more.

She walked from behind the counter and came & stood in front of me she took her hand slowly down my chest & then went to unbuckled my pants. I look toward the door to see if any one was coming.

I then moved closer and closer to her face I put my on around her head and then slowly went in for the kiss...

But I couldn't help but to think about Ashley as soon as our lips touched..

It wasn't the same feeling...

I tried to pull away she was aggressive, determined to have what she wanted..

I suddenly got away from her grip and pull far away.

Diggy -" look I just came in for a pregnancy test, so may I have it so I can go.

Megan - "guess you can have anything in the store ,but don't you want me?"

The way she said it to me was so seductive.

Diggy-" No  I don't.  I just want the test so I can go back home to my girl"

Megan- "Are you sure?  I know I can please you?"

Diggy-"There's nothing you can do to me that my girl won't already do.

She walked back around the counter very angrily and got the pregnancy test.

Then she sat it on the counter and rung up it up.That shit was 45.62

Diggy-"Damn girl what did I buy six of them. You know what I don't even care. I threw a $50 bill on the counter grabbed it and walked out..

As I got in the car in my heart it feel as if something was wrong ,something didn't feel right, and I didn't know what it was but I didn't like it. I started the car and raced down the road...

*Diggy at the house.*

Ashley  Pov.

I'm in the kitchen sitting on the floor, twirling the knife on my fingertips. Should I really do this? I question myself. What is there to fucking live for anyway? But then I thought about the life of my possibly unborn child, I shouldn't do that to him or her, I shouldn''t kill something that hasn't even had the chance to live becuase my mama didn't do that to me. But then I think again, I Love my mom, but if I wasn't born things would be so much easier, she would've never died. She could've been living the good life with a husband and a big home, and think of it this way if I kill myself , me and my could be child can see her sooner, because I know God is forgiving no matter what no one says. And that's what brought me to my final decision. 

I lift my knife to make a deep, vertical precision on my arm, clenching my teeth to make sure I didn't scream out. As I moved down my arm, I twirled the knife deeper into my flesh hoping  I hit a main artery, and when I final did i let the knife drift out my hand, smiling as I sinked futher and futher into the darkness. "i'm coming home mommy," was the last thing I thought.