It's okay || NCT Jaemin FF

Confession

I arrived at Namsan Tower at 8:15pm

A hand closed my eyes from behind and I jumped a bit because I was surprised

"Guess who?"

Just by hearing his voice, I knew who it was

"Monkey."

"What!" His hands got off right away and I turned back

"I was just kidding, of course I knew it was you Jaemin~"

"What's with the monkey, I feel offended" He makes a sad face

"Aww" I pinched both of his cheeks, "you're still cute even when you're sad."

His face turned red and smiled sheepishly, "you never fail to make me feel better in a second."

We both take a walk up the hill to get the the highest place so that we can see the night view from up here

I ran out of breath as I pant while walking and I walked slower
but Jaemin grabbed my hand

"May I?" He smiled while holding my hand, and I nodded

We both walk slowly while holding hands
I can't control my heart beating so fast and can't hide my smile

"Ah my back hurts again.." he sighed

I rubbed his back slowly, "Do you want to stop for awhile??"

"No.. We're here already."

"Wahhhh we finally made it!!" I excitedly said as soon as I saw the amazing night view

"We wouldn't make it this far if we didn't hold hands just now~" Jaemin winks

"Hahaha, wouldn't have done it without you. Thankyou!"

"If you're thankful then grant my wish."

I gave him a confused look, "what wish??"

He smiled, "Later. Let's just enjoy the view now."

We both looked at the view for long time. It's amazing to see the bright city from up here especially with someone I'm in love with secretly. Jaemin is my idol-crush ever since he's pre-debut, and spending time with him like this of course is fall for him right away as 'love'. But I'll keep my feelings as a secret.. it's better that way.

By a sudden surprise, Jaemin hugged me from behind and I could feel his chin rest on shoulder

"Jaemin...?"

"I think my feelings is becoming deeper than I ever imagine..."

"What do you mean?"

"If only we could stay this way always and I can tell you about my real feelings."

When he said that, I can hear the sadness in his voice
and I realised what he's trying to say...

"It's hard for an idol to have a love life isn't it?" I pat his head, "it's okay I understand."

"I love you."

My heart is about to burst as soon as I hear him say those words to my ears
but at the same time it aches.. why?

"Jaemin" I hold his hand while I locked my eyes into his, "I love you too.."

"Can you fulfil my wish now? "

"Hm? Yeah what is it?"

He leaned in closer as if he's about to kiss me, "this."
our nose touched and his face is so close to mine
I closed my eyes waiting for that moment
but stopped as soon we heard his phone ringing

"That ruined the moment again..." he hit his face with his phone
and I just laughed

He picked up the call
I noticed he looked at me few times while on the phone
it doesn't seem like a good news because his face changed

"What's the matter?" I said as soon as he ended the call

"Nothing, maybe we should go now before it's getting late!" He smiled and grabbed my hand

He sent me home and gave me a peck on my cheek before leaving

"Goodnight Lena!" He did a heart sign with his finger

"Goodnight Jaemin!" I blow a kiss to him