Star crossed lovers

18. Journal

Sabrina pov

i decided to move back home with my family for this difficult part of my life i told my friends that i just needed a break from it all and that i'll be back before they know it i feel like most people didnt really notice although they might've been suspicious of my sudden leaving and possible pregnancy they didn't really know for sure

but one person did find out and that's why i'm here today, writing in a journal that i haven't seen or written since i was 10, the last thing i wrote about was being sad that zac efron and venessa hudgens broke up

at the time i didn't realize how people come and go and so do their feelings and the circumstances change it's all sport of life and growing up

i'm a grown up now, being pregnant and all
now and my baby still at risk. He found out

and now he claims that rowan and him are broken up and he wants to be with me and with out baby and he's trying to fly up here

god i can't even bring myself to write his name down on a piece of paper

i don't know how to feel right now should i just let him right back into my life like that i just don't get it, i'm scared that everyone,
my fans, my future job employers if i even still have a carrier after this will think less of me and think that i'm not a ro-model

people don't understand that shit happens whether we are prepared for it or not it's this ride called life and we're all on it right now, everyone has something.... it's our choice if we judge them or hold it against them or move on

I've decided to end this book at 20 chapters and we're almost there but i promise you will be happy with how it ends and i'm sorry if this is a trash fan fiction it's because it started in the hype of the gmw fandom era and now it's ya know dead so.... im really sorry